Mat Jiwang

2009-01-28T17:33:00.001+08:00

Syg, aku merindui dirimu,
hingga [ku] terbygkan wajahmu,
tk terdaya ku mengelapkn mataku,
kerana [aku]hati dilamun rindu.

Usah kau merasa ragu2,
terhdp cintaku kpdmu,
kerana [ku]terlalu menyintaimu,
seikhlas hati berkata.

chorus;
Tidak perna terlentas difikiran,
utk aku memperduakanmu,
dan tk perna, aku bersikap curang,
dibelakang atao sebaliknya,
sungguh aku tidak mahu utk melepasknmu.

Tuhan sahaja yng mengetahui,
betapa sucinya cintaku ini,
biarpun ku menerima permata,
namun tidak dapt ku membeli,
senyumanmu dan tawarmu, sbgai ganti.

Percayalah oh sygku, bahawa diriku ini,
benar2 menyayangi, kpdmu oh kasih.
benar2 menyayangi, kpdmu, oh bintang hati.

2009-01-24T22:38:00.009+08:00

its been quite sum tym since i blog.. haa.
23rd/24th January, was my 1year Singlehood..
1year bukn cm 1year ehh.. cm lagy lamer adela. tskk..
susa dtg betol.. hahah.

sch? fitness trg btol punye fitness.
naseb aku blehh tahan..
3 weeks of sch & i had to run for 4 tyms.
1st; from ITE bukit batok to ITE clementi. 5/6km.
2nd; 2.5km @ ITE clementi..
3rd & 4th ; About 3km @ ITE bukit batok..
my timing fr dat, was 16mins. nasebb aku pass.

bdk2 skola? more & more students cuming in.
a few frm sports schh.. gerek tu gerek but dis few days,
alot of prob.. haaa.

friday; me,atiq & nana skip class juz to play st soccer after our 3km run.
while atikah, nadia & khamelia took their bath.. haa.
nasebb skola tk lamer.. overall skola best la kann. =]

Since sch started, i hav nt had tym to go down to Lengkok.
serious aku rindu family pat saner. tskk. haiyoo.
but tkper, didnt get to c them.
atleast i get to c adyq recently, story adyq wow! ehh.. hahah.
gdluck adyq in ur relationship. hope u last long.. Ida oso kehh..

lastly;
1year have pass but its still the same. this heart remains w u.
i am trying.. still trying..
miss u bintang.

2009-01-11T14:05:00.002+08:00

its been a long tym since i last blog. computer yng kecoh bukn aku.
alot of tings hav been happening since.
N level ? i got 10 points, & dat tym pkiran ehh nk msk sec 5 tk, but denn dcided to take Fitness Training.
Pass Fitness interview & all, & nw im in dat course. macm2 kawan aku aderr. interesting.
& its at ITE bukit batok & clementi. at bukit batok coz we are using the gym. =]

Abit aboud sum pple;
Nana, kecyk & cT ? its been 1 week plus since i last went down to Redhill. tsk. & aku rindu dorg.
Wahidah & Adyqku; im missing them so so much.seriously.haiyy.
"Pisangs"; dun noe wat will be happening to us next. hope dis frenship will stay ait.
&& "Powder"; altho we will nt be as close as we were recently, i hope the frenship btween us will remain.
Nur; i dunnoe wat to say bout her, coz she came right aft Nana.. & the story is almost the same. S...
*; aft 1 month of nt seeing u, dis is wat i get. thanx ehh.
u had always been a person who change.

my headd is so not okehh wif alot of probs cuming in, bt still i hope tings go fine.
dats all fr now.. thanx ait Mas fr "copy & pasting" diss.haaa. and yea pics will be
uploaded soon.

An_MJ_Dy.

2008-11-28T20:15:00.002+08:00

random;

i forgot to mention dat my rantai wif * name, terputus.
on 24 nov. siakk kan. sedehh eii.
& dorg2 sume kate, itu satu petande. hahah.
rantai tu kan rubber, da putus, shah putus kn lagyy.
& 4aces started playing wif dat ting at 25.
yng tingal, hanye itu star wif dat name. haiiy.

&& ika;
muker aku muker org demam ehh ? hahha.
asl jumper aku jekk, mesti nk check temperature aku.
dahsyat.. =P

mas;
tak jady trun bukn nk picet, naseb ika blg,
lau tk kesian aku tngu kau jek.
& kesian shah & faz, asyek tanye aku kawn aku tu trun tak.. ishh.
try make it aft bpk kau klua spore denn t lehh lepakk ngn dorg aite. =]

& yeaa my decision to try to treat u as a fren, i will TRY aite.
blom pasti lehh uat. hahhaa.

2008-11-25T21:07:00.004+08:00

yest went to Tiong Bahru, met PNA,
talk3 & ade ke patot die pngel aku "hubby"..
jatohh gerl.. hahha..

Met firah under her blk together wif Mas.
proceeded to 25, nga lepak2 tu, 4Aces & their frens join us.
Nk kat kul 7, Dydie lakk dtg, abes kerje cpat, tu pasl die lepak.. haa..
Die ade tym limit eii lau lepakk, bini pat uma tngu.. hahahah.
Aft awhile Afif joined us, & kite dnga la lagu2 bru die.
Denn ika came, thanx ehh fr the makan.. hahah..
makanan sharing. wawawa..

tmpat exercise; bdk2 phantom pun aderr.
& ini la fav prt aku, firah tumpang naek "basikal motor",
kyter rounding tmpt jetty, pass by tmpat kenangan sumer la.
& wen bck to 25 ida pun smpaii.. denn off to mit dat Monyet at 302.

at home, sungguh airmate turun macm tkdepape.
bru 4 hari, da macm 4 minggu. ishh. babii.
ouhh yeaa, onli manage to sleep at 5 plus.
so decided nt to lepak today, or else "sumone" confirm ask alot of ques,
if she see's my eyes. errr.

4Aces; Shah, Roy, Faz & Azizah.
basikal motor; battery operated,tkyah kayuh.
macm motor jugak la kirekn.. haaa. kentals.

ku masehh setia, dan ku maseh menanti,

kembali lah kau kpd ku,

sudiku menerima mu seperti dahulu..

2008-11-25T12:34:00.008+08:00

Looking at Yuyul pic, bring tears down my face.

Every msg i receive, i always hope, its from

her. Altho im gone frm her life, i will still wait.

-MJ

Its only been 4 days since i last msg her.

But i feel weak.

2008-11-23T09:06:00.003+08:00

got my hair cut yest wif Firah.=]
& to "cheer" me up, member bgy 4 joke wen we were walking bck.
hahah. tkperlu ehh.. ishh.
my mood wen down wen firah ask me to read sum msges,
airmate nk trun. tahan je. thanx alot ehh.

was supposed to go to Kubor today but the car tak dapt amek nari,
so papa cancel & make it next weekend.
ape lagy nk blg ehh ? hmms..
ouhh ya, will be staying at mama hse on sum days during hols.
take turns, betkr2 rumah la aku nie kann.
soo fr nw, still get to lepak at 25. bt it will be lesser soon.

& to u;
as promise, i will go.
wateva feelings i hav now or later, i wont write in msges nimore.
lyke how u kept it frm me then, i will do the same.

"org laen" confirm happy aku uat gni.
haaa. aku pahm. kentals. =]

&& today,
most probably will do sum reminiscin wif Firah accompanying me.

i may seem happy, laugh & talk lyke theres no problem.

but hw i feel deep down, onli We noe.

happy supposedly 1 year 11months.

2008-11-18T09:11:00.003+08:00

namer die Fireen. haaa.

RXZ; scandal Ida punye. yng nie bwak, bwa blk jek.
adyqku tercinta.
tayang rmbot skejapp..
ohh dan ini, uhh yng tu la.

above pics; gmbar tk lamer tk bru.

the previous video, thanx ehh mas sbb letakkan.
bile tu bnde mintak di bakar, tk tepkir due kali pun,
tapyy tkper, kenangan tidak perlu, soo ok go!
& yeaa thanx to firah sbb nk sngt tlg bakar. haaa.
ape sajer..

life? while nga tngu dapt keje.
keje aku melepak & merempat.
pat 25, kite di-join bdk2 Phantom & satu pompan,
name Izzati.

ohh ya, firah excited dapt bwak motor RXZ,
motor scandal Ida dapt round2 bwa blk 25 je.
tapyyy, motor mataer Ika,
dapt bwak pat carpark in between blk 25 & 30.
ade badi skejap, sal aku tk pkai helmet,
lau jatuhh, parahh. nasebb firah pro. haaaa.
thanx ehh sofie.. hahaha.

2008-11-03T20:10:00.010+08:00

Updating on An's behalf [:
But purpose of updating was to upload this video .. sedih2 ..
kay2 dah2 .. siket2 aje .. And oh, it's the blog owner's request [:

*WARNING*
Might not be suitable for minors [x .. nolah, see it
for yourself ..

Alright Toodles !

`мallovεя™

2008-11-01T18:46:00.002+08:00

random;

mmg senang nk ckp, tapy buatnye tidak.

think bfore u speak ait.

& yeaa,

aku rindu ☆.

2008-10-28T19:12:00.002+08:00

wen i finally get a chance to blog,
i dunnoe wat to say.
things are ok & nt at tymes.
& should i mention?
nmpk chill, dalm membara.
thanx to alai, fr wanting to "accompany" me to smack dat person.
but bcoz of loved ones, who hold me back, they didnt let me do all those.

ohh to u,
i wish sumone put sum sense into u so u can talk to me straight in the face aite?
& im refering to the person who said he wants to pump my eyebrow.
bobal memg senang, aku tngu ehh.
tahula aku tindek keneng, takya bobl gtu macm blkng aku.
aku tk carik pasl ngn org tanpe sebab & yeaa i dun talk w/o prove..

&& yeaa Firah/Chomel & me, are waiting for sumone to "matikan" kite.
hahahha! aku suke aku suke aku suke! haaa.

ohh & my bdae juz passed recently,
but no big deal, coz bru 16,
lau 18, aru exciting.. hahhaa..
& thanx to u, fr spending abiit tym wif me.
atleast im happy.

ZZZZEEETTT!

2008-10-18T16:22:00.003+08:00

1 week plus didnt update.
as & wen i want to update, more probs/story which i receive.
i dont know wat else shall i say here, but yeaa,
to the person whom i refering to; i wish ur happiness last.
& to the other you, go fly Kite kehh.

thanx to ika & others fr wanting to cheer me up yest;
but all i could do was give them a weak/fake smile.
& yeaa ika n firah, i didnt want to cry infront of u,
bt dat story really hurt alot.
haiy. ='/
yest nite,wen to ika's area, & walk arnd tmpat kenangan,
left there onli at 12am.
between 12plus to 5plus, sent bintang 4 msges,
sungguh aku lemah, & wat i typed i juz wanted u to read n understand.
dun worry aite, aku nye org tk kacau mataer org laen.
tapy, aku setia menanti.

&& zarina, aku benci maen bunge api ngn kau.
penat ehh lari2, naseb kau aim sume tk kene. aak!
bt the next tym, next year kot, t aku bli yng biseng nye kehh.
dis tym, aku maen kau lari, tgk berpeluhh tk.. haaa. jack!
& video, klaka laa.. haaa.

ohh recent pics, will b uploaded sum tym later aite.

Bukan kemahuan ku,

bukan kehendak ku,

atas kegagalan cinta ini.

Ku turuti jiwa atas kehendakmu,

walaupun ku sedar, pahitnya bgyku.

Aku redha, apa yng belaku,

berbahagia la oh Irahku.

Kelukaan ku ini, usah la kau perduli,

biar ku berduka di dlm tangisan rindu.

aku hanye mampu melihat kau dr jauh.
rindu, harus aku tahan.
dalm skelip mate,
kau, kepunyaan org,
='/

2008-10-06T18:32:00.002+08:00

dis few days asyek gy shopping jekk.
ida bought her shirt. wif firah pulak,
bought the bear, rantai, bracelet, cincin.
pompan bertuah mane jek tau dapt tu sume. hahah.
& it happen aku bli rantai star, die pun nak.
she engrave the werd bintang, & mine was, ****.
haiyy.

met ika & ida juz now, at blk 26,
tmpat kenangan kite lepak.
& yeaa dis few days, aku asyek nyanyi lagu samer jekk.
jelakk nnti org dnga.. hahha.
& wen i sang dat same song, balek2 hujan.
haaa.. tkper, sejukan dunie.
met * for awhile, juz to giv the ting.
but the only ting dat i said to her was; bye.

aku nak sngt bobl ngn die.
tapy bile aku tgk muke die, sumenye tknk kuar.
i may seem happy talking to others, tapy kat dalm aku kecewa.
& yeaa, used to get many msges frm her, but now,
dalm sehari, skali jek la kann.
wanted tings to be lyke usual, but i noe,
everyting is far different now.
& she's happy wif the love.
i wont do anyting, coz dat was wat i asked for. haiy.

soo yeaa to u;
i had always wished for ur happiness,
even if the person is nt me.
=']

imytm.

2008-10-05T17:46:00.002+08:00

have not been blogging fr quite sum tym now.
many things have been happening.
& to flashback.
starting of 22nd sept,dat week was the worst.
was drunk on mon nite,wahidah slept over till friday.
& the whole weekdays i didnt manage to sleep.
macm2 bnde kann wa kite buat tym malm ?
& makn was the onli ting we enjoyed.
adyq slept over on wed. & dat day was when everiting started.
had problems wif firah, mas, & sape2 la yng kene mengene.
life wasnt the same. & besides dat i was sicked.
thanx to ika,adyq,wahidah & bintang for being there.

things are okayy between me & firah.
after 9 days of nt meeting, we finally met.
dun wish to repeat dat incident again.

things between me & bintang?
i dunnoe. aku lost.
but one ting for sure;
AKU RINDU KAU NURUL SHAHIRAH BTE NOR AZAHAR.
TERLALU SNGT.=']

exams? uhh enta la knn..
pass ke takk, tgk jek la result nnti.
left wif onli DNT paper on 9 oct.
& dats the end.

&& to bini tercinte; ina.
suker tk suker itu bear ?
&& yeaa, org blakng tu bear agy cute dr tu bear kehh.. hahah!
ohh btw sorry! keneng ku ade bnde lagyy.. haha.
addiam.

lastly,
been having sleepless nite again.
& yeaa. iwa&fly bintang.

2008-09-22T22:15:00.001+08:00

dunnoe y but i juz feel lyke laughing,
hahahahhahaa.

bcoz of mas changing her email add;
& maybe bcoz of our/my fault, wif us finally knowing
wat KEA [in her email add] stands for. ish3.
mas, tu kann joke.. haiyoo. usah uh change email. haha!
since kau change, maybe aku ika & ida change skali kot.
haa. fake!
ermm, aku; SHA, ika; E. [suppose to be HEH ei.]
& ida; AAA.
yng tahu ape maksod tu letters, diamm sdhh.
hahha!

& also bcoz of wat ika wrote on her blog.
info2 didalm blog kau tkperlu ehh. hahah.
bukan 190909 kehh..
bt mas; lau kite ingt, dat day kite mit kehh.
hahahhahaa.. joke!
ohh aku suro ida bgy flying kiss pat tu org, bukan kau.
pffftsskktsk. haaa.
& yeaa ika, kesian la pat aku, tkmo asyek kacau2 aku je.
sedehh eii. wawawa.

& to kawan2 yng plan bdae aku;
maseh 1 month + to go, so chill. hahah.
insyaallah ape korg plan, akn jady aite.
=D

& now back to serious part;
1 week left for studying in sch.
denn N levels. & kite tros enjoy aite.

Nlevel days;
29 sept; sci & maths paper 1. ends at 4pm.
2 oct; history.
3 oct; maths paper 2.
9 oct; DnT.

today;
slept late last nite,
slept onli after i sahur, 5plus.
didnt went to sch,
coz i dont hav the mood. haaa.
exam nk dkt maken tkde mood plakk. haaa

firah came over to my hse.
& we went out after kite buke.
went to wahidah's hse.
ade hal ckitt.
talk3 & hear alot of stories.
wahdohh! keliru kehh aku. haiyy.

& tmrw is the 23rd.
usahh eii kawn2 remind aku.

2008-09-20T13:38:00.000+08:00

on a random note;

wat i had thought; really did happen.

hah.

2008-09-19T23:53:00.003+08:00

ferstly for those who dont recognise our voice for the previous post song;
chomel; dimanakah janjimu, dimanakah setiamu.
an MJ; kau berjanji sehidop semati, tetapi kau memungkiri, segala janji.
&& frm then onwards, chomel then myself, dat sequence.

chomel; shaqierin itu namamu.
an MJ; shaqierin sering di hatiku.
& dat sequence again.

yest;
ate my medicine & slept till arnd 8plus at nite.
puase halfway jek, dahsyat.
dis few days, feeling too weak. enta asl. haiyy.

today in sch;
pagy2 je da dapt FK, thanx ehh wak. =]
& pagy2 jugak, IKA da kacau aku rabak nye.
tlg ehh ika, sungguh aku tk perna terpkir pun sal tu sume.
ohh btw, ITJ.. hahah. =P.
funnyboi per ? usahh!

& since last two period, cikgu tk dtg,
ika,mas,ida & myself sat together.
my right hand; ida conteng namer die.
left hand; ika conteng namer dier.
endup due2 gado nk cucikann. haaa. kentalss.

suppose to go mama hse today bt she work till late at nite.
so yeaa going her hse tmrw & thenn to geylang.. =]

met chomel after sch, member tebiat pat uma aku,
macam2 suare die kluarkn. hahaha. [bnyk video. haha]
at nite, me & chomel, wen to tmpat lepak [kenangan] kite,
blk 26, lepak ngn ika & ida, wif Nazreen & wan.
yng paleng kecoh; aku letak $5 dlm tin redbull,
[tnga khayal/ke-belo-han]
ida nk kluarkn duit, duit koyak.. haa!
prangai nk tape.. hahah.

&& today;
for after i-dunnoe-hw-many-days/months,
we msged for almost 5 hours. tk stop.=]
& i cant deny dat im feeling wrong at the same tym.
altho i miss this, i dunnoe y im havin dis feeling.
& yeaa, im feeling wrong nt bcoz i keep aniting,
bt tings on ur part, dont seem to b going well. haiy.
='/

altho i love bi so much,
i have always wish for bi's happiness.

2008-09-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

recent pictures;

fiqah & chomel. showcase rmbot la tuu.. haa.
tnga nk record lagu, guitar die style la kann.

wawal;ngn clip pat rmbot. ini candid ehh. sluar tkperlu. haiiy.
aah! yng ni bukan candid. aku yng suro uat gtu. haha

Speakers up pls.

2008-09-17T18:14:00.005+08:00

serious, otak aku blank,
enta ape nkk blog, tapy mas suro blog.. haa.

previous mon, since me n chomel were bored.
i dcided to duet with chomel laguu "nurain",
bt we changed the name to.. "shaqierin".. hahah..
ques frm pple were; laen macm je namer shaqierin?
addiam sdhh!

& chomel sang sum lyrics,
which juz came to her mind, da buat satu laguu tukk bi.
biar aku dapt tempo tu lagu, aru aku nyanyi kehh.. haha.

dis fw days, if u were to look up in the sky at nite,
u would c dat the moon would hav rainbow on its outer site.
& dat there will be no more, ' 1 star' near its side.
ok, dis is random. haaa.

didnt went to sch yest;
bcoz i only managed to sleep at 5 plus in the morning,
tklehh tdo tu, dnga la lagu kite, msged chomel &
said wat i wanted to ... sedeh nk mampos keh.
& i rest the whole day at home.
lemah smcm.

ermm, dats all i think ?
will nt be blogging always aite.
=].
ouhh n i wont hope fr much.

here's the song we sang;

Shaqierin - Chomel Feat An MJ

Een - Chomel Feat An MJ

please mind my "R".. aku mmg susa nk sebot itu werd. haaa.
demo jek aite. =]

2008-09-12T22:52:00.003+08:00

sch as usual nothing funn.
started lesson only at 9, it means,only 1 hour left for history.
for dat lesson, cikgu gy class sec1 so slack3,
talk & hear funny stories.
adyq, pinky ehh ? haha.
recess wif lower sec, macm biase,
aku asyek kene kacau ngn aqilah, aisyah & zilah.
saw ___ [insert name] bt since she saw me wif nisa,
she juz looked diff.. entalakn ape nk kate.
sweet tings happen during recess. =]

maths was at AVA, while doing our maths paper,
we watched war movie. crite gerekk,
tapy bnyk sngt darahh, kpale tangal la,
macam2 la kehh. ishh.

shall nt mention aniting boud dis evening aite.
arnd 8pm, i went remininscin jap. haa kentals.
tnga duduk2 ctu sorg, msg la berok, kesian die,
jiwer tk tentram.. dahsyat.
wen off dat place arnd 9.30.

too many question in dis head,
but no answers for it..
keliru.

ohh btw,
plans to buke puase wif ika & others was changed to another day.
entalakan jadyy takk.
& plans to buke puase wif anisah was cancel,
coz she had a last min match on dat dayy.. haaa.

2008-09-11T14:33:00.003+08:00

questionnaire by bintang;

1 ) Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket ?
go sumwhere cold ? antarctica ? haha.

2 ) What's your favourite thing to do ?
ermm.. stare ? hahah!!

3 ) Do you think money can buy happiness ?
ofcoursela cannot. ishh.

4 ) If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be ?
for nw, nothing in mind.

5 ) Things you can't live without :
handphone & my ring.

6 ) What are you afraid to lose ?
people very close to the heart.

7 ) If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do ?
Travel & buy wateva i want. =]

8 ) What do you dream of doing in the future ?
future as in next year ? cum back to juz train juniors fr soccer. haa.
sungguh random.

9 ) List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey;
too many good points till i cannot think.. haaa.

10 ) What makes you happy ?
to be around loved ones & seeing bi smile.

11 ) What type of person do you hate the most ?
those dat are coward & like to "turn" stories.

12 ) If you have a super power , what would it be ?
mind/heart reader ? haaa.

13 ) Would you go for happiness or money ?
wat a question; happiness. =]

14 ) Who do you think is the most important people in your life ?
everybody which is close to the heart.. haha.

15 ) If you have a bf/gf, would you die for him/her ?
bonus question, if it was bi i will.

16 ) Who's the last person who hugged you ?
zariina. hahaha. kentals.

17 ) What is the one thing you want to do badly right now ?
get another peircing ? haha.

18 ) Who are you close to ?
M.I.I.S.Z & wahidah.

19 ) Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like her ?
yeaa. i dont always keep my feelings. haaa.

20 ) If you could do one thing all over again what would it be ?
go back to europe, i guess. =D

21 ) 3 things that scares you:
-god.
-losing the ones i love.
-cats ? abiiiit only. haha.

22 ) 3 things that you like/love the most:
-again, people close to the heart.
-the spongebob gift.
-aniting which is star.

23 ) 3 important things in my room:
-spongebob.
-pillows.
-hanky. [other tings in my room all no need. haha.]

24 ) 7 people to do this questionnaire :
[will only ask a few]
-ika, ina, adyq, ateekah.

ok dahh! tu jekk.

people close to the heart refers to;
fam, friends, M.I.I.S.Z & those who are special.

didnt attend sch today coz;
i was juz plain lazy.. haa.
later going to juz slacked wif chomel & others.
so dats all for today.
=]

2008-09-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

since yest i was oredi late fr sch,
today almost late, bt decided to take cab,
wif mas & mazni. haaa. kentals.
timetable lesson has change.
all lessons 2 hours,frm nw till 26th sept.
except wed, sch ends at 12.30 [recess wif lower sec],
on wed sch ends at 1.30 [recess 11-11.30].
makenn siang ehh kite alekk.
lesson mendakk bt bolehh la jugakk. haaa.

in the evening, went to do sum stuffs.
met ina arnd 5 plus wif chomel.
& to ina; learnt ur lesson kann ?
pangel kucing, anjing skali yng dtg.. haaa.
aku mmg la badii ckit ngn kucing, tapyy tgkk korg tadyy,
sungguh klaka.. hahaha.
& thanx kehh sbb uat tangan aku lebam ngn pukulan kau tuu.

arnd 8plus, did sumting,
dats wen dara kuar pat aku nye eyebrow,
belambak kehh dara, chomel smpai nk pengsan tgkk. haaa.
dara kua pat aku, die yng menggigil. hahah.
tindek n bukak tk saket.
enta asl dara jekk belambakk.. ishh.

ohh yaa, aku happy dapt bobl ngn kau walaupun seekejap.
today; u maked me smile.

2008-09-08T21:42:00.003+08:00

sch today was extremely boredd.
ferst period; chemistry.
& for the ferst tym chem lesson best.
frm 9am till end of sch,
we juz did our own revision.
boring kann ? siakk tol.
recess lakk, since tnga puase,
sat at the bench & talk2 je la.

sumone smiled at me bt i didnt smiled bck.
bnyk la bnde aku dnga. tklehh angkat kehh.
kpale pisang btol.
im talking boud fizah btw.
she's the one i always refer to as ___ [insert name]

wen sch ended,talked to anisah.
bile bobl tu kan, i smelled adidas perfume;
sah2 die pkai botol warne white nye tu.
serious, aku rindu org yng perna pkai perfume tu.
haiiy.

&& adyq asked me to dwnload a weird song;
"kalau bulan bisa ngomong". haha. kentals.

plans ahead;
tmrw; lpas buke maybe lepak ngn chomel. after her werk.
wed; buke wif ika & sum others. [maybe jekk aku gy]
fri; buke wif anisah. if she gt no soccer.
[asyek buke je. dahh tu, asyek maybe je.. ish.]

2008-09-07T21:37:00.005+08:00

yest;
break-fast wif fam at chong pang.
only the 4 of us went, & only me & papa fast.
macm biase lau gy chong pang, confirm minom.
after dat papa & abg continued to drink there;
adek went hm, i went to mit chomel.
serious ehh, smlm sejuk nak mampos.
slacked at 141 while waiting for ina, till arnd 10 plus.
dorg due enta la kann gerak wat tym. haa.

& thanx ehh chomel;
sbb kan kau la, aku tk smpai pat adm kul 10.30.
reached adm at 10.50.
cary2 Syakilah dier tkder. hp lak ngn abg die.
so yeaa, when was at home,
she called, mule uhh die nye biseng.
her only line; "ni uhh janji mlayu". hhaha.

arnd 2 plus in the morning,
abg & two of his frens came hm,
bilik aku jugak jdy tmpat dorg relax jap.
& dis is the ferst tym i c abg lyke dat,
bobl pon da tk btol. haa.

my msg to sumone dat nite was;
if u love sumone, kip dem in ur heart,
n they will forever stay.
Its hard to let go, atleast try.
They may nt be urs, bt atleast u noe u hav tried.
"moving on is a process & u hav to
promise urself dat u are really ready to let go." =]

haaa. senang kann aku msg gtu,
aku sndiri buatnye tidakk. babi.

2008-09-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

N level ? okehh can do.
SS ? luckily i remembered my sec 3 topics.
yng lagy 2 tu, juz hav to see the results. haa.
& yea, being a smart arse,
i missed my Nlevel MT Listening Compre.
aku smpai kul 9, cikgu fazil suro sign attendance je. hah.

fever & flu have nt gone down.
makn obat tetap samer. haiyy.

tnga puase nie,
i go out only during the nite,
tk pun, tym nk kat buke aru kuar. haha.
kentals.
& yeaa, have been sleeping early dis few days,
[early as in, when i get hm]
jz to avoid myself frm msging ..

& i will only update wen i have tings to say kehh mas ?
hahah.. =]

ouhh yeaa,
im trying very2 hard.

i may have failed.

but i have .....

2008-09-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

juz came back frm meeting chomel & her colleague.
after buke puase, met chomel teman her makn.
denn waited for her fren to end werk.
sambil2 tu, aku ber J japp.
aku nak msg asyek kene tahan diri aje.
thanx ehh chomel.

denn aku mmg tanak jaln alekk mars.
bt denn ... haha. so yeaa, i agreed to walk hm wif them. haa.
& yeaa we walk our usual path;
kesian kawn bru tu tak tahu mane nk jalan;
ouhh & her name is shidah [syahidah].
&& yea, her fav colour is orange.. aak!
walk to mars mrt, chomel anta smpai bwa jembatan,
so yeaa frm there i send shidah back hm.
die tingal 400plus.
otw back, chomel msged.. macam2 kann kau..
ass. =P

& tmrw is our ferst day of Nlevel..
dis hols, 3 days of Nlevel.
mt, ss & eng.
hope i can do well.
=]

2008-09-01T15:31:00.003+08:00

sat;
esplanade area, not marina square.
dis tym we slack near the baybeats place.
in search for marsi bt nowhere to be seen.
& wahidah was in jb, i think..
didnt stayed there long. ishh.
& ida n chomel dapt naek flyers;
takper insyallah december aku nye turn.. haaa.

sun;
met ida & went to bugis st wif adek.
macm nk gile kehh ikot ni ida bli brg2 dier.
arnd 5 plus went to Penin,
aku bli brg laju kehh, tk macam ida, lamer nk mampos.
i bought my yellow star shirt.
adek bought her white stripe skinnies.
ended the day wif us eating at LJS cityhall.
favourite aku eii. =]

& mas;
mmg nmpk serupe cm matrep ke lau aku pkai tu sluar ?
tk blehh jadyy nie. wah sort, wah sort.

today;
maybe after buke am slacking wif chomel.
nt sure yet. haa.
tgk la mood aku cm mane ehh..
dis few days, mood abit down.

2008-08-30T14:19:00.005+08:00

am having a fever frm friday nite. haiy.
ni pun chomel nk ajak kuar.
nt sure if we are goin bpp or slack mars je.

yest;
sch was fun la jugakk.
aku punye cupcake atas star2 eii. da chop da siang2 ngn adyq.
mas; gmbar tu jgn lupe anta.. haa.

after sch; settle sum stuff.
went was at beside BK.
i saw ____ [insert name] & kamarul. tkperlu ehh.
i didnt wanted to believe wat aby & aqilah said,
but maybe dats the truth. haa.

after dat went hm, out again, to settle sum stuff.
aku ngn firah puseng2 satu bukit batok.
endup naek taxi.. haha.. dahsyat uh tu tmpat.
frm there went down bp,chomel tk ikot. kat ctu ngantok ait.
settle sum stuff again.
arnd 1o plus aku jalan, denn trun mars, area 100plus.
settle syakilah prob. sungguh irritating ehh wak.
& finally hm.

& yea kawn2 yng tk suke prangai aku smlm;
sorie. even during sch tym aku mmg tkde mood.
chomel; yerr aku tahu, i will try to control my fcuking temper.
ina; yeaa, da takan ingt2 tu sume lagyy. usah eii. =]

2008-08-29T00:37:00.002+08:00

cant sleep yet.
in 5 hours tym im suppose to wake up, n mit classmates,
tlg angkat brg katekn. haa.. kentals.
wats bothering me ? alot.. especially firah.
*inside story*

seriously firah, wat u did juz now. tk perlu eh..
aku dr nk settle aku nye hal, tros kene settle kau nye hal dulu.
aku lau naek taxi gy tmpat ina tkper, ni dr uma aku lari gy adm,
dr mars mrt lari lagy gy uma ina. haiyo.
kalao aini tkde ehh sblom aku dtg,
aku rase ika ngn ina takan tahu keh ape nk uat.
pkir la balek ape kau nye sala aite. sndiri nk ingt la kehh.

so yeaa,
ni kalo aku tklehh tdo,
nmpk nye, tngu la smpai kul 5 pagi kann nk mandi sume..
ishh.
& tmrw should be a fun dayy. =D

2008-08-28T19:11:00.006+08:00

y am blogging again for the 2nd tym ?
tkde keje ? hah! no! i want to be frank here.
im freaking hell controlling my temper.

Aku bdk kental ? keh la, bdk kental tk tnye ajak kau jmpe,
settle bnde per kn ?
so yeaa, u noe who u are, set a date,
kite lehh talk/fight it out. ape2 la kan.
n by doin dis, Aku bukn step besar/maot,
tapy aku nk kau tahu, sume bnde kau buat ade batas.
Aku player ? sala org la kehh.
bcoz my post i hold ZARIINA hands = pmpan laen,
& at the end of everyting i do, i still put there "i miss you".
dat shows im a player ? hah.
Kau tk knal aku kau jgn bnyk bobl,
aku bukn suke2 la pegang tngan die keh,
org mabok ape sala aku tlg?
N desperado ? wat do u mean ?
wanting _____ back means im desperate ?
aku ade per setiap kali jumpe/msg die rayu2 pat die,
suro die tingalkn kau n trime aku ?
takde per kan. tink ferst uh before u type.

Aku tanak ckp bnyk pat cni.
bile2 kau nk, aku on keh.
& nk sepak muke aku ? ok go.
where i get dis info ? jmpe lehh bobl la kehh.
nk num aku? mintak la mataer kau.
& maybe tuk kau, fight ni sume atau talking is of no use ?
lau tk gune, usah uhh type2 skali

action speaks louder than werds aite.
BNDE TK TRUE AKU TAKAN CKP.

2008-08-28T15:56:00.003+08:00

after sch yest; chomel went to my hse.
denn arnd 4 plus left hm to go to Ang mo kio to mit Elsa.
under my void deck npk Amalina;
ade ke patot org ckp nk gy Amk, die ckp "jumpe anisah?".
chronic tol..

met elsa, lepak2, makan2, talk nonsense & everiting.
werd for that day; master & gula2.. haaa. *inside story*

went off onli at 8.30pm. took 169 frm there till wdls.
& thanx ehh firah sbb uat aku sedehh dngan kau nye story.
teringt kehh kisah2 yng tak patot. babi.
& to u; dat is the reason y i msged lyke dat.
the "long ago" way of starting my msg. haiy.

ina; kau nye PS pat blog kau ade macm utk aku tk ?
terase eii. haa. i think la.. hmms.
& jgn takot, tak TERangkat nye.. haha.

& as im wanting to keep it low,
more&more pple are cuming to noe boud it.
penat tau asyek kene ckp; "kawn je laa."
ass.

bImy.

2008-08-26T19:16:00.003+08:00

yest;
got to noe my results. & its expected la kann.
eng: p1; pass.
p2; fail; 31/80.
mt; both papers pass.
Hist & SS ; 23/50 for each paper. overall fail la kan, by 4 marks.
Sci; physics; 7/50. [expected. the formula i use its either +-/x] haha.
& i dont think the results are final.
those i didnt mention; blom dapt result. =]

during sch tym,
2 other pple got to noe boud her, ___ [insert name],
& ahmad syafiq was like; ohh, blg ina ehh..
& started calling me by her name.
hamzah plak; msg mak kau ke msg mama ___ [insert name].
ishh. kawn eii, sungguh tkde pape special. haa.

after sch went hm straight.
mama asked for a favour to jage adek khairul, so i agreed.
fought wif papa wen i wanted to leave.
arnd 4+ left hm, met chomel ika & elsa at bukit pnjng plaza.
masok tu mall je nmpk ina tnga keje, sempat aku kacau japp. haa.
left them to go to marine parade arnd 6.30, reached mama hse at 8pm.

arnd 11plus at nite, syakilah msged to say she was at ECP, ngn kawan2 dier.
[ade aku knal, ade tk knal]
di ajak jumpe, soo yeaa, siap2, & ton there. haa.
drank macm2 vodka la, + the vodka i drank on sat. =]
came back onli at 7+am, still didnt get to sleep,
khairul nk tgk "duyung" so temankn dier.
slept frm 9plus till 12 plus.
japp je, nk anta adek gy skola nye pasl. haa.
left mama hse to go back hm arnd 5 plus.

2008-08-24T14:54:00.003+08:00

will be a long post yaw..

yest;
met wahidah n firdaus at bns arnd 5.40..
gy mkn at macd.
arnd 6.30 chomel came..
denn waited fr najib.. his fren,shah was oredi there.
proceeded to cityhall, anta wahidah gy CHIJMES got dinner wif her frens.
the five of us went to LJS, maknn lagyy..
in awhile chomel left, gy amek ina pat dhoby ghaut.
left me & the 3 of them.
kuar LJS je nmpk Paii, Yus & elfy [najib gf],
denn wal & akiah came.
wal da fedup. ferst ting he said was ;
"asl tu babi ade pat cni?" ish3.. refering to .....
*inside story*

followed najib & the rest to marina square;
& ikaa memang tau, bile die msg & call2, pkir die sorg,
bukan nk ckp die ngn ina & chomel skali. ishh.
met them infront of starbucks.
adyq/cad pulak lost pat ctu, wal jugkk yng kene bgy direction. haa.

watch firewerks, adyq, ika & chomel lehh tahan excited la jugak.
amek2 gmbar. i stand there alone..
then ade la org dtg pelok aku dr blkng.
[tngan die pat atas shoulder, the other hand holding her hand on my shoulder.]
alaa. biasela, org pendek mmg gni. hahah..
& ina fren ask;

guy: ur boyfriend?
ina: [enta ape die ckp]
guy: ohh, hi boyfriend.
& went he came back he looked again & he said;
guy: ohh, ur girlfriend ....
i cant help bt smile. hahaha.
ina lak bisek die kate; alaa. untuk sehari jekk.
& she said; we should be watching the firewerks wif the one we love.
hahaha. klaka uhh kauu.
[& wen dat happen, chomel jealous ehh ? hahah]

& yeaa chomel nye siak;
she reminded me again; it was the Anniversary.
haiy.

waited for wahidah to come;
denn we open dat drink.
wahidah bgi aku cup,
ina lakk amek balek; konon tk bgy aku minum la kann.
haha..
while drinking sumone msged;
chomel & adyq read the msged.
haiyy. seriously i dunnoe wat i was thinking.
after drinkin & all, me chomel adyq ina & ika left arnd 10.45,
ina da mabok habes.
in dat shopping mall, chomel hold on to ina hand all the way;
aku pun join la kann.. due budak star pat tepi, bdk kecik pat tenga. haha.
bt aku pimpin ina tk lamer tauu, haa.
*da cukup da aku pimpin ina pat ECP* wawawa.
adyq pun pimpin ina jugakk.
suke ehh suker ? haa.

&& yeaa, ni favourite aku;
in dat mall, i asked ;
MJ; ina kire bintang.. 1 2 3 4..
ade 7 kann. *kenangan ecp*
ina; 6.
[hahaha.. padehal tkde bintang tauu, enta ape yng die kire]

tnga jalan lagyy, ina looked at my hoodies;
i asked; ina kire bintang ehh ?
n she smiled.. hahah.. siakk..

dalm mrt, chomel sat wif ina..
berkepit jek tauu.
while ina head lay on chomel shoulders.
&& airmate ina trun;
hoodies aku jugak yng di-uat pkai tuk lap airmate..
hahah..

reached hm exactly at 12.. =]
[ohh btw, did i mention frm the start of the day,
i was pissed off wif chomel.
bile aku nk kuar uma die lak tk jadyy nk gy..
& i msged her finally to ask her to cum down by 6 plus.
&& in the mrt, kite gado, seriously felt lyke smacking her there. haa.
nasebb aku tahan.
wen at cityhall die mintak paisey.
& i realised i was wrong too.]
da, da cukup pnjng la kann post nie..

2008-08-23T16:17:00.002+08:00

a short post b4 i go out.

am bored while waiting for dis people to msg.
will be heading down to esplanade wif many2 people.
wahidah, chomel, akiah, wal, firdaus & sape2 lagy la kan.

chomel ; uhh! namer die usah uhh sebot2 dalam kau nye tag ehh.
thanx. =].

& today is supposely my 1 year 8 month wif ☆ .
& 7 month singlehood. haa. kentals.
haiyy.

2008-08-22T22:06:00.006+08:00

sch today was okeh la kann; boleh tahan fun.
dnt; went thru our werk but mostly were talking crap;
boud bdae girl, SCV, hidden camera, n level papers,
macam2 la kann. hah.
otw back to class, stop n looked at sumone.
jap je tk lamer, tk sanggup tgk lamer2,
gtu je da rase sedih. haiy.
maths; continued to watch the show,
"Pursuit of Happiness."
while watching dat show,
my mind was elsewhere, aku tahan jek airmate.

finish sch;
went out of sch, ingt nk alek, but denn went in back,
to wait for chomel.

in the canteen;
i did a big mistake.
die duduk meja sbela kite, tapy aku tk tegor pon.
the whole day my mood was down. dngn die2 skali aku tk bobl.
when i went out of sch, nga tngu bus, she msged asking y i didnt "tegor" her.
haiyy.

ida n chomel followed me hm,
dorg pkai comp, while aku mandi, denn makn
after dat off to chomel blk to take akiah file, [ida alek]
denn to akiah blk, met her & waited for shidah.
ouhh, bnde klaka terjady,
we went our seprate ways, denn chomel pekik;
"Akiah!! An nak ....."
hahahah.. babi nye chomel. sungguh aku malu. ishh.
proceeded to ida hse & slack there till 8 plus.

the walk hm after dat wif chomel was a silent one;
kite tk bnyk bobl, enta asl. haa.
i had my prob, she had her's..
haiyy.

im still missing you badly.

2008-08-21T22:48:00.007+08:00

macm biase;
i cannot stay at hm all the tym.
arnd 6pm left hm & went to buy ciggs at marsiling.
denn frm there walk to titanic,
kesiann shah/chaa & cad/adyq tngu aku. haa. tk lambt sngt per.
took 912 to shah's area, 400plus.
slack2, talk2, hear many stories frm shah, & there's so many link.
ohh yeaa, adyq n me laugh lyke hell, when shah said;
"tym kecik,kecik, tym besar, maken membesar".
[referring to the face.] hahaha. siakk jek tau.
klaka sungguh topic tu. haa.

slack till 8 pluss, jady photographer jap, aru bergerak dr ctu.
me & adyq went to Teh Tarik. haos sngt la kite, asyek mengasap aje.
tnga duduk tu kann. ade la due org mlayu, [tue la jugk]
duduk samer table pnjng ngn kite.
bru je duduk ngn air. 5 org dtg. CNB eii..
kene handcuff. & everiting. terpranjat japp tgk gtu.
adyq da gabra. sal kite due pegang rkk contraband. hahah.
uat cm biase, talk3, denn jalan, dorg maseh pat ctu.
took 912 denn to civic amek laptop adyq;
& finally home at 10.

&& juz watch the beijing highlights;
sungguh aku sedih. haa.
brazil lose to USA; 1-0.
tk jady uh gni nk tgk tu encore telecast nnti.

☆
i want to look at u.
i want to smile at u.
i dont want to ignore u lyke i did juz now.
tapy asl aku ego sngt ? cb nahh prangai aku.
haiy.
smpai biler eh ?

*sape2 tk suke ape aku ckp ; ok go*

2008-08-20T12:53:00.002+08:00

didnt go to sch todayy.
am not in a mood.
naseb exam da bes, so can chill at hm.

yest nite went lepak-ing wif chomel & afif
at 123..
while tenga lepak tu kan, bnyk la bnde kite bobl,
mostly boud afif; nk kahwin, family, rokok,
mataer.. macam2 aje.

&& chomel binget, bukan pasl ape,
tapy pasl hp aku asyek ade bunyi msg jekk. haha.
was msging since the tym i went out of the hse smpai la kul 11 lebeh..
msg sape ? alaa. bdkk tu. haa..

i was happy most of the tym; wen i came back hm,
was using the comp, my mood change.
i knew sumting was nt right; & sumbody was avoiding me.
Ape ehh sala org smpai i c changes ?
[memg la i dont mind all that changes, tapy mesty ade sbb kan.]
Ke "ade org" tk suke sume tu ?

K.B kpade sesape.
haiyy.

2008-08-19T16:46:00.003+08:00

going out later;
arnd 7 plus, gy lepakk.
tadyy da cukup da aku tdo lpas alekk skul. haa.
dnt ? susa kehh. ape aku blaja sume tk kuar,
out of the 3 topics; structures, mechanism & electronic.
there wasnt aniting bout mechanism or electronics. sial tol.
bikin panas je. & fr dat, senang2 je aku loss 12 marks. ishh.

& during the lower sec recess;
sumting happen. wawawa.
adela kan mcm badi jap, tros okehh.

ouhh yeaa,
watch womens soccer last nite;
Brazil beat Germany [unbeatable world cup Champ] 4-1.
& in another one, USA beat JAPAN 4-2.
the final against the two winning team;
on thursday 12am. [friday morning].
mcm biase ; support Brazil.
=].

dalam bnyk2 org yng aku rindu;
kau la yng aku rindu teramat sngt.
=/

2008-08-18T23:56:00.004+08:00

about yest;
ferst up; met ida & chomel at mars mrt,
wif adek.
denn to bishan, to give chomel work tings.
frm there to Peninsula;
jalan2 cary hoodies kite & adek stuffs.
atlast i bought two star hoodies & macm biase;
my spongebob boxers.
sedih kehh tak dapt bli yng pink nye. haaa.
gave 1 hoodies to chomel,
bdae present eii.. skrg tingal kasot je kann ? haa.
insyallah.
frm there went back to Marsiling denn took 856 to Yishun,
punyela lamer dalm tu bus, nk tetdo aje. haha.
reached there at 7. abg & two of his frens + papa was oredi there.
nmpk jek atas meja; 4 glass of Tiger. botol enta brape bnyk lahh kann.
&& ohh! papa didnt allow me to drink; only chomel.
reason; schooling the next dayy.. haa.
bt still i drank, & he didnt say aniting,
takan la nk halang kann.hahah!
drank tiger & becks. =]

& itu chomel kann mintak kene whack,
sempat tauu depan bapk aku die cium aku. ishh.
skali tkper, ni haa, 3 kali..

after all dat;
took 856 againn.w/o papa bt wif one of abg frens.
me, chomel & adek lepakk jap pat 173 denn alekk..
lpas tu; nk alekk, maseh pat mars mrt,
dnga ade org pngel2. puseng lakk nmpk wahidah, akiah & najib.
bobl2 japp denn akiah ade la pegang tangan aku, die ckp;
"tangan kecik seyy"[pegang2 jari].
dahh tu tkper; tnga hayal bobl ngn wahidah,
she did sumting, lpas tu lepaskn tngan behh ktawe,
terpranjat jap aku die buat gtuu.. buang tebiat.. haa.

today;
exams ? cb. sungguh aku tau aku akn fail..
tak pahm laa ni sci sume.. hahah.
chomel came over in the evening, denn arnd 6 gtu kite kuar uma..
gy lepak & everyting.
mlm jmpe ina pat blk die nye tangge.
ina!! TK! wawawa.
& sungguh aku suke maen game racing pat hp kauu..
asyekk menang ajee tauu.. haa.
kentals..

kehh,
cukup panjang la post hari nie,
now want to watch womens soccer;
brazil vs germany.

& i miss you t m.

2008-08-17T23:12:00.008+08:00

onlyy pics today, will update aboud juz now, maybe tmrw.

Kembar? ahh yerr.

At Cityhall. =]

Chomel a.k.a White. [White la sngt.]

org kai hoodies die pon nakk. haa.
smoke tym. ida, chomel & adek.
Jiwer JD.

Chomel & abg. aak!

tkmo nakk show off ehh.. haa.
kentals.
gayy..

2008-08-16T23:50:00.008+08:00

yest nite, while i was msging, bleh tetdo plak,
dat was abt 8plus. woke up onli at 2am.
3 msges 2 private misscalls.

sorry ehh Mas, sbb msg kau kul 2 lebeh,
tanye sal tu misscall. pkirkn kau.
ingt2 balek kaunye bukn private.
rupernye, die la. haa.
kentals.

today;
met chomel at titanic arnd 3 plus.
denn waited fr wahidah at bns.
she came, did sum project, eat at macd & back to titanic.
borrowed the person beside us, their soccer ball , maen timbang.
&& dat was when all the laughter starts..
"Like a .. Like a ..", "Die la langit yng gelap, yng penuh ngn bintang".
haa.. kite enjoy dri kacau chomel, chomel tros binget. haha.

Joke of the day ; ZaFIRAH bte Mohd Faisal a.k.a Chomel.
wawawa..

after all dat akiah came,
denn arnd 6 plus wahidah & akiah went to cityhall,
while me & chomel went to 123.
8 plus went hm.
&& yea, aku pkiran bile dalm bus.
went reached hm, pkir2 lagy,
"nk msged tanak ehh".. endup i msged.
berlink2 msg aku. haa. said all dat i wanted to.
& luckily she understood wat i told her.
1 jam gtu la kn kite msged, bnyk sngt link2 tuk msg. haa.
-ohh its nt who you think it is, dat i msged.-
-p.s ; dis is the ferst tym im talking boud dis person. =]-

so dats all for today;
lastly i miss you.
-ohh its who u think it is-

2008-08-15T14:48:00.006+08:00

have nt been using the comp dis few days.
internet lau tk sort; tkpun aku mrayap.
exam eii, blaja.. [ohh! bedek.]
all the papers were okehh,
macam biase except for maths;
buat je, macam pahm pon tkper,
aslkn ade ans. haa.
&& ina; tk habes2 uat exam, "base on her own knowledge"..
t kite tgk results ehh.. knowledge kau begune takk. haha.

most of the days;
after exams; chomel will meet me at frontgate.
from there to my hm. denn ptg smpai malam lepak..
ini sumer tgk mood. hahha.
&& yea normally after anta chomel alek;
never take the mrt; skrg naek bus 912 plak..
& frm there; macam2 laa kann..

tidak diperlukn eii.. haa.

to ika ;
blog kau bnyk eii pasl aku.. hahah.
switt nahh. sungguh aku touched.
& yeaa, tak tahu lak aku sengaje wish lambat,
boleh uat kau nanges. haa.
& suker amek gmbar bile aku tk tahu? ish3.

&& yea to chomel & ina;
mulot tklehh diam ehh firah?
kesian aku pagy2 lagy da kene pukol ngn ina.
adik angkat aper ? ishh.
ina, kau lawa, pmpan tu lagyy lawa. hahah.
kentals.

macam biase asyek ngn guitar die jekk.
pics below taken from ika's blog.
thanx ehh amek gmbar tk blg [060808]..

2008-08-11T23:26:00.007+08:00

did noting much today;
arnd 2pm met amalina under my void deck..
teman die tngu org sbela BK cozway. die jalan denn waited for Chomel.
while waiting saw sum familiar faces.
& macm ade jodoh gtu kan, aku ngn Chomel kai samer bju. haa.

After chomel job interview,
went to my hm.. [macm biase jugak. haha.]
after very long Wahidah came., followed by amalina.
While Wahidah put her things in my laptop,
the three of us slack in the room.
talk2, sing2, & dis tym amalina talked alot. hahah.

Arnd 6+ she went hm. [macm biase jugak, hanta die alek.]
oh yeaa, i was abit sad though bcoz of ... , & chomel said;
aper yng kau rase skrg, nie la ape yng aku rase bile kau msg ina gtu.
wahdohh! kecohh dah.
arnd 7 plus aru kite tige bergerak dr uma; went to cwp carpark,
to meet Najib & his gf..
8 plus me & chomel went off.
Jalan gy bli rkk denn to 141 & denn back hm again..

& lyke all the tyms dat i looked up at the sky..
bulan memg slalu jauh dr tu bintang.
& tu bintang memg hanye satu. =]

ohh yeaa;
narie 3 kali org tu ckp die rindu aku.
macm bertahun2, dier tk ckp gtu.. haiyy.
& ape die ckp tu uat aku gembire.
thanx ehh sesape namer kau tu. haa. =]

ohh! prelims start tmrw; wish me luck aite.
=]

2008-08-11T00:00:00.002+08:00

slept arnd 4 plus last nite,
tgk womens soccer, & after dat wen i was abt to sleep,
Syak msged. hmms. kecohh da.

ouhh yea; karaoke was cancel today coz Papa reservation was the last on dat day;
the latest time slot was 8pm. haa. wen Papa wanted 2pm. ishh.
& AGAIN its put to another day. haiyy.

was at home the whole afternoon.
only went out at 7+pm, reached marsiling ard 7.45.
nk tahu aku gy mane ? haa. dtg aku nye J.
aku gy reminiscing japp.
jalan dr sbela skola, denn sbela blk koka,
frm there, tkyala tahu kann, aku jalan mane. haha.
jalan2 duduk2, 8.30 bru gerak dr tu blk, kuar je tu blk nmpk bulan.=]

chomel was oredi waiting for me at blk 123,
member binget tungu lamer2. haa. bukan slalu aku lmbat. haha.
org gy reminiscin mane lehh rush.. take it slow eii. haha.
slack3, & denn went hm, reached hm onli at 10.30.

soo yeaa;
dats all for today yaw.
=]

2008-08-09T18:53:00.006+08:00

1 hour + till i go out.
will be meeting Chomel right after this ndp show finish.
plan to go to Esplanade tk jady, coz member nt in a mood.
kecewa btol aku smlm.
thanx ehh sesape.

earlier on arnd 1pm left hse & went to mama work place,
ate wif her & her frens,
went to buy my brown shoes,
topup hp & she gave $150 for the three of us.
after everyting, smoke denn went hm.

maybe staying her hse on fri.
will c how it goes yaw..
missing adek Khairul so much. haa.

ohh btw,
Papa & abg got sum problems, got to do wif police.
Papa, about sum stupid stuffs.
while abg went down for a fight wif his ex-gf bf.
they wanted to settle sum stuffs.
abg waited wif Kenneth for 2hrs, but the person didnt came down.
abg call & ask, & finally he came down, with..
with.. with.. 2 policemen. haaa.
kentals!
ade ke patot, abg was almost charge for riotting.
wawawa. dahsyat..

noting much today;
so yeaa,
wanna get ready to go out & slack3..

2008-08-08T23:04:00.006+08:00

didnt went to sch for the eve of national day celebration.
arnd 1 plus Chomel came, did her usual routine at my hm.
uat macm rumah sndiri la kann. haa.
denn to 131, bought ciggs denn slack2, went back hm,
amalina & denn ida came.
did sum stuffs, denn to the room, talk3, & hear chomel play guitar.
amalina didnt talk much, ktawe jek lebeh. ishh.
arnd 7 send her hm.
after dat, me, ida & chomel went to 123 slack till 9 plus.
while in the bus otw there, ina [bini tercinteku] msged ;
saying dat today, bulan, half moon. haha.
went down bfore mars sec busstop && yea true enough,
bulan half, mule2 ingt crescent. haha..

tnga lepak tu kann, chomel suke tauu. sukerr. sukerr.
sukerr nah cium aku, on both cheeks, wen i was doin sum other stuffs.
dahsyat tauu nie org.

otw back hm, in bus 912, ina msg again,
saying ; B. I nmpk cl0ud movin.
wen she msged lyke dat, i noe sumting was nt right.
lyke i thought, die minum! hmph!
lpas tu msg kate kpale berat.
testing die jap, suro die kire bintang. [kenangan eii. haha.]
mule la die msged, kate bintang tkde, bulan tkde,
cloud je yng die tnga tngok. haha.
&& die kate die balek KL aru die bgi hug.
aku tngu kehh. hahah.. =D
[chomel jgn jealous. =P]

plans for tmrw;
maybe going to mama hse,
denn either slack wif chomel & others.
or going dwn to esplanade.
will c how it goes tmrw. =]

lagu bintang hati; by chomel.

mentang2 la chomel ade hp bru; suke amek2 gmbar ehh.

ohh; camera shy. =]

2008-08-07T23:54:00.005+08:00

this is very random.
i miss you t m.
the truth hurts ; i noe, if i were to say everyting out here,
"pple" will get hurt by wat i want to say.
haiiy.. Smpai Bile eh ?

& evertym ka chat wif me,
she will ask me to do tings which i myself am nt capable
of making those dcision.
haiyy. AI.

stayback in sch today till 5.
to finish up the dnt board & folio.
after dat backk hm, did everyting & zZz for awhile..

&& i miss Kratingz.

2008-08-06T22:47:00.004+08:00

sch was as usual.
only dat we finished at 1.3opm juz to go to ITE dover.
boleh la tahan jugak, mostly got to do wif engineering.
while in sch, many pple commented on my hair.
ade kate cm durian, esplanade, botak, kekurangan rmbot,
mcm2 la kann comment dorg. hahah.

otw & back frm ITE dover..
my "choir" sang all those jiwang songs.
choir team ; alif, syahidah, adyq [cad] && faeza.
ferst tym eii dnga faeza nyanyi sekuat2 dunie. sdap2.
after many2 songs, they were join by wahidah. eman & aqbar.

ouhh yeaa, ina will be goin KL in 2 days tym.
hmms. confirm! confirm!
agknye la,
akan di rindu. haha.

i dont noe why but im nt feeling right.
maybe bcoz there are unwanted info, haiyy.
bnde aku tk ingin tahu, takya la nk blg.

& lastly,
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY to Chomel.
may u succeed in lyfe & never give up on anyting. =]
13 punches on its way.

gambar lamer eii.. =D

2008-08-05T22:32:00.005+08:00

p.e today not as fun as previous week.
dis week didnt get to play takraw & had to play badminton.
kentals. boleh la tahan jugak.

after sch;
went to get my haircut, tebal eii rambot,
tklehh angkat.
die cut mmg nmpk cm biase, bile rase rmbot,
nk pekik je aku.. rmbot kat blakang da macm botak.
dpan lagy la tipis habes. entalakan ape nk ckp.
&& adek comment on my hair was ; "lyke juz came out frm jail"
haiyy.

met chomel arnd 6 at titanic, jaln pat cozway jap, cari2 brg, & off to 123.
there were sum happy & sad moments.
tnga lepak tu, ika msged & dis was wat she said ;
"wats 0n ur mind ? wen i l0ok up in e sky i cn 0nly c a crescent . yepz . n0 stars . ."
after replying her msg, she replied dis ;
"mayb its WAY TOO FAR f0r u & mie to n0tice . ."
true enough wat she said.
arnd 9 while walking hm saw ina & alai near mars sec busstop.
talk3, n alai pegang2 rambot aku. he said; "okeh la tu"
[bnyk kau nye okeh.]
&& yeaa, i too realised moon nari lawa. tapi star ?
jauhh eii.. haa.

reached chomel blk, she was talking to Papa otf.
pasl upcoming karaoke. bt entala manusia2 nie, free ke tk ehh. ishh.
tmrw is chomel bdae, so i gave her 3 punch.
lagyy 13 punches kehh beb. wawawa.
& yea before i left, she gave me a kiss on the cheek.
aku pon bgi la die satu kiss on the cheek jugk. haa.

tnga msg tu org skrg,
die mintakk kiss lagy. ade gtu, penumbuk boleh tangguh..
nk whack aje nie org. haha.

so yeaa,
wanna do my dnt in awhile.
tampal2 nie sume, sungguh aku tk suke.
=]

sds.

chomel tnga tules surat cinte eii..

pic taken by; ika. editted by; mas.
macam2 aje nie org.
lagy2 ika, mengacau aku.. hmphh! sort.
&& yea, rmbot tnga masai eii. =]

2008-08-04T21:43:00.004+08:00

am so not in the mood.
my mind kept on thinking aboud unwanted tings.

abt yest ;
sungguh kecewa. haa..
biler aku tanak kuar, sume ajak kuar, endup kuar ngn chomel & others.
arnd 4 plus was at b&s waiting for wahidah,
denn ternmpk bdk2 national u-19. nmpk lak anisah ngn kakak die..
member tk tegor sey, case mrajok nye.
sbb tk ikot die ngok match bola pat clementi, u-19 maen. haah.
tkper, next tym la kehh org teman.

frm there, went to bugis, arab st,
wif Najib, PaEe, Yus & the 3 of us.
denn after everyting, back to city hall.
went our own ways frm there.

me & chomel walk arnd at Citymall. [aku rase la kan]
saw sum familiar faces there, && i saw Faeqah. =]
asl ngn chomel je mesty ternmpk die.. rindu eii.

arnd 9pm, went to blk 15, to meet ina [bini tercinte??haha.]
saw Kamarul, his adek & two gerls, so lepak la skali kann ngn dorg.
Chomel & Kamarul took turns to sing & play the guitar.
Aku ngn ina, maen henjut krusi japp.
lehh kurus eii, uat gtu.. hahah.
went off at arnd 10 plus.

today;
didnt went to sch, sungguh aku tk cukup tdo.
only manage to sleep at 5am. haiyy.
nie otakk sungguh sort. ish.
bngon tdo je ade 5 msg. macam2 bnde aku bace. =]
met chomel & went to sch to send my d&t folio,
denn off to my hse, makn, bobl mrepek, nyanyi cm nk mampos.
&& macam biase jugak, sape2 yng masok bilik aku tu, confirm!!
confirm kacau bear Dina & Spongebob. ishh.
after all dat back to cwp, ternmpk adyq, ade dektu gy cubet telinga aku,
merah habes keh. hmph!
denn met Mas at Titanic to take back my d&t folio,
rebind it..
& my d&t is almost done. =D

& im sorry if those msg were unwanted.
msg tu sumer ikotkan hati.

2008-08-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

yest ;
after sch, met chomel infront of sch,
&& off to my hse.
while i took a bath & pack for soccer, die kai comp.
denn met ida at cozway arnd 3..
wanted to eat & bind my dNt folio.
chill wif them for awhile, denn i went off for my game at Ntu.
game; we managed to score a goal, by Soffi. =]
Altho we lose, we still had the "man of the match", Soffi again. heh.
ouhh ya, before the game start, wen we wanted to do our normal cheer,
Van told me sumting. haha. tk perlu ehh info. ishh.
Reach hm at 11 plus, & since i couldnt sleep did my dNt till 2 plus.

"nk msg tanak, nk msg tanak, tkperla, tdo je." ish.

today;
met anisah arnd 5 plus at Adm, pass her sumting,
denn she went for her trg.
went to meet chomel, to cut her hair,
proceed to cwp, denn to 123, denn played "dum" at 141,
[kecoh eii maen tu game] "suker kau rampas bini2 aku". haha.

& yea, chomel on the song which i had nt heard for a long time,
"Seandainya Tuhan Mengizinkan". teringt seseorg. KT kape ? ish.
arnd 9, off we were to eat arnd marsiling area.

lps makn tu sumer, nk balek mars mrt,
sumting happen which made chomel laugh lyke hell.
thanx ehh. paisey aku jap. haha.
pat tu jembatan, nmpk D-B-K wif her sis. heh.
reached hm onli at 10.30.

ohh btw,
the ques for the day by chomel; sungguh Tak Perlu ehh. haiy.

2008-07-30T22:23:00.004+08:00

Crite Congkak start kan ade tnjuk sal silat,uhh nie la die,tnga uat kerje bodo.
Macam macho kann dier, gni macm? hahah.
Biler da tenga2 crite, "macho" tros jady hancor. hahah. Kentals.

Met Chomel at titanic at arnd 5 plus, aku lmbat ckit,
biasela org nk makan, mandi lagyy. haha.
Went to ida hse, sblom tu amek wahidah sbelah skola, die pon join skali.
Ferst show we watch was, Prom Night, crite gerek.
add sound effect syahidah, bertambah gerek.. haha.
after dat arnd 7 plus, watch congkak, until the show finish,
went back wif chomel n wahidah.
ohh! while watching the show, yng paleng biseng chomel n ida.
&& yeaa, dorg bodo2kan aku..
ade dorg kate, Opah tenga mandi .. [dengan hand sign]
aku adela gy ckp, "ehh?"
start ctu dorg pangel aku "gsk2".. ass..
Denn walk back to mars mrt wif chomel,reach hm at arnd 9.30..

members = hancor. hahah. For fun purpose. heheh..

chomel ; ehh jady superman, superwoman, arghhh.

Ken-tals. =]

2008-07-29T19:43:00.004+08:00

yest ;
sungguh irritating, bnyk private miskol,
asl aku angkat je, org tu ckp ape ntah, behh letakk.
sungguh aku tk knal sape. kire2 10 kali die uat gtu.
after sch, went home, took a bath, & i was out again,
met Mas at adm, pkir mane nye skejap lahh kan,
behh dektu ajak aku gy pasar, da berzaman tk jejak pasar ei. haa.
denn gy kedai, die bli brg2, n we went sperate ways.
Watch my G&g jap jek, even before the show end, i went out,
went to marsiling, lepak ngn chomel.
Went back onli at 8 plus.

today;
aku sungguh biseng + hyperactive.
ferst period je P.e, maen badminton jap, denn maen bola.
&& sejak2 nie kan, aku maken jady "sotong"..
nie la, slalu sngt ngn chomel kot, tu sal "sotong" slalu kuar. hahah.
yng tahu, diam2 ehh.. ok kann jadyy lembik japp. wawawa.
kentals.

&& i was so noisy today dat my eng tcher said dat,
im the "noisiest" in the class. yelakan!!
chem tcher said i was more "wilder".. nie lagyy satu. ishh.
bt look on the bright side,
2 months +, & sch is finally over. heh. =D

paiseyy ehh chomel, tk mit kau narie.
aku nie lau da tido ptg w/o alarm on,
tdo mampoz eii.. =]

&& anisah wants me to play on 17 aug for the 7aside Ite bishan CDC ting.
bt will c how ferst aite, Prelim lagyy ade.. haiyo.
& maybe,im also going to support Kratingz for 7aside Pesta Sukan @ SAS,same day,
bt diff time.

ohh! & our ferst Youth League Match is on 31july, against Ntu @ Ntu @ 7pm.
the previous ferst match against u-19 was postponed.
=]

2008-07-26T22:32:00.005+08:00

left hm at 1 plus juz nw & met sum of them to go to
ITE bishan for 7-aside soccer.
& i thought we were short of players.
tahu2, ade 9 player including me.. nid 7 jek.. 2 reserves la kann..

the 9 of them were ;
shahirah,mimi,farhana,farisha,farah,azizah,anisah,atikah & myself.

game against whitley sec [white jersey] & another
whitley sec team [orange jersey] - we won.
& aku mmg cm sial,
ferst & 2nd game;bola terkene muker one of the ferst & second
whitley team player. ishh dahsyat.

against Nanyang poly - draw, 1-1.
last game, against ITE central , enta yng mane satu, anisah & azizah scored.
but im nt sure if we win or nt. & for dat last game i didnt play ,
coz i lend my boot to anisah & let atikah play.
wanted to c hw she play. =].

injured player ? anisah. haiyoo. tangan kene pijak
ngn one of the player, wen she fell.
dahsyat.. cian yg.

met chomel outside Ite bishan &
went to cwp denn to 123 & slacked till arnd 8 plus.

& mas ;
lyke i say, dun look at things frm onli ur perspective.
wat u hear n see , may nt be wat the other party is exactly thinking.

ohh btw,
while blogging, was msging wif ina.
i was smiling & laughing when i read her msg,
sungguh kau klaka.. haha..
msg2 kau, aku simpan kehh, uat kenangan..
hahahah!
& atlast sumbody is wishing for a new girlfriend.
GFY.

2008-07-26T10:02:00.004+08:00

too much in dis brain, bt wont type all out.

Mt N-level oral is over.
the topic was easy, bt too many werds didnt know how to translate.
it was abt sports. i said the werd "boo & sportmanship",
& the person corrected me. n she kept repeating,
"merekA & sayA".

yest ;
in sch ; 3 pple asked if im on drugs.. ar yelakan!
since trg was cancelled.
after sch, went back hm to sleep.
met chomel at arnd 5 & off we were.
slacking again at marsiling area.
too many things happen while we slack arnd.. ishh.
went off at 8 plus..

An ; ken-tals.
chomel ; ben-ci.
akiah ; sukersukersuker..
klaka eii dnga akiah bobl cm gtu thru phone.. hahah.

quote fer today;
"mungkin berjuta bintang di langit, hanya kau lah bintang yng ku ..."

2008-07-23T18:23:00.002+08:00

Bukan diriku - Chomel

Pada mulanya kita berjumpa, hatiku ini terasa getar.
Lantas kita bersua muka, kita bertentang mata, laluku lafazkan kata cinta.
Sungguh indah dikau yng ku puja, seringkali ada didpn mata.
Tapi sygnya percintaan kita, tiada kekalnya.
Kerna kau berubah.

[C/O]
_____, namamu berbisik ditelinga, wajahmu bermain dimata.
Mengapa cintamu sementara saja, dgn sekelip mata kau menerimanya.
Insan laen selaenku, peritnya bgi diriku.
Kau biarkn ku menanggung rindu, kau disana bahagia..
Ku disini derita..

[2nd C/O]
Tiada serinya BIntang dilangit, bulan kesepian tanpa teman.
Kini ku ditemani airmata, yng jatuh mengalir membasahi muka..
Dikaulah penyebabnya.
Sakitnya hati tidak trkata, ~~kau maenkan cinta yng ku beri.~~
Kini ku sedar dia lebeh bermakna,
bukannya diriku.... Bukan diriku...

written by chomel,
dunnoe y she wrote dis song 4 me to dedicate to *.haiy.
pape pn thanx ait beb.
&& lyke every other month,
its the 23rd again.

im still sick, so there's noting much to blog abt.

2008-07-22T18:32:00.003+08:00

it really sucks to be sick.
flu, cough, sorethroat & fever.
lpas mate bengkak, tros tu sume. haiyy.

yest;
didnt went to sch.
& i was bomb wif lots of msg.
was still sick bt then Jang & Shidah called asking me
to go to Coach hse ade meeting.
soo gy je la..
reached there, talk3, gd news bad news & we oso received
our Nike jersey & reporting shirt.
the colour of our jersey, mmg tidak perlu.
orange..tapyy lawa la kann.
reached hm at arnd 11pm.

today;
was still sick bt had to go sch.
came at 8, bt that KRJ, ask me to stay in the GO till 8.30,
aru dapt release.. all bcoz of my hair.. yela kan!
only played p.e for half an hour. okehh la jugk.
&& in class, org2 ckp aku cm, mat drug. siak.

&& adyq broke 4c glass window. hancor. berderai.
violent eii adyq aku.. hahaha!

after sch, went to meet Chomel at linkhse near my area,
wif Wahidah & Firdaus.
chill & smoked..
thenn at Wdl mart, the rest came.
alip,wal,shaiz,alai.
shaiz left ferst
after all dat, went to lepak at linkhse,
denn off at arnd 5 plus.

&& nw dis headache&flu of mine is really bothering me.

2008-07-20T23:25:00.002+08:00

today was fun&fun+gyler..
chomel msged saying she wanted to cum over my hse..
soo she reached at arnd 6 gtu..
used comp & all, denn arnd 7..went to pick adyq/cad.
die tnga stress habess tu..
soo we smoked & listen to all her stories..
story yng paleng klaka is ; pasl kampong,tym nga mandi.. hahah!
tak perlu ehh info2 gtu..

after dat,went to my hse,
the three of us used the comp, & we chat3..
kesiann MW kene layan 3 org skali..
tapyy yng paleng irritating chomel la kann..
yng chat bnyk sngt ; adyq.. hahah..
suke uh tu kann. heh..

chomel sedeh, tros masok bilik maen carom, wif abg & adek.
me & adyq continued using the lappy.
after dat i joined them, letting adyq use the comp alone..
da bes kai lappy, dier pon nk join skali maen carom,
me adek adyq n chomel..
tapyy adyq kann,die sorg yng tak tahu maen,
asl blehh shoot je.. hahah..

&& spongebob & bear Dina,
mmg tklehh letakk atas katil..
bear Dina "dirogol" olehh Chomel..
spongebob pulak,adyq uat tuk bareng.. tu tkper.. heh..

send them to the mrt at arnd 9.30 gtuu.
after salam adyq wanted to kiss me on the cheek..
aku nie da sebok bobl ngn chomel,
tk prasan ape die nk uat..
ferst & second tym,
mmg aku tak pahm ape die nak uat.
last try, die tros kate "tak kene la"..
hahah! bru aku pahm ape die nk uat..
sori dyq, abg slow narii.. hahah.. =]

dats all for today yaw.

2008-07-19T18:42:00.007+08:00

was awaken by chomel's msg to mit arnd my area.
at two plus met amalina under my blk, & went to mine & chomel normal lepak place,
chomel was oredi there..
soo yeaa, talk, talk & talk.. hahah..
arnd 4 plus kite jaln,sent chomel halfway,
die nk gy umah makcik die,area cni jugkk.
& then left me & amalina, die lakk ajak lepak dpan rumah die..
soo yeaa, met her mum, played soccer, talk & talkk..
left arnd 6 gtuu.

now doing my dnt presentation board,
sungguh tkde idea ape nk add up lagyy.. ishh.
&& chomel ajak kuar kul 8 punn aku tk ikot..
kecohh uhh tu orgg. ishh.

ohh mas ;
thanx ehh for cuming online wen i am..
tapyy lmbat lah,aku da tag alek da num aku..ishh!
&& num kawn2 tules la pat buku,incase.. haiyo.
but bgos jgak,lehh kau tlg aku dngn nie bnder d&t.. heh.. =]

&& heyy, `do u reallie hate me dat much ?

2008-07-18T23:30:00.003+08:00

sch as per normal & i always lyke my fridays.
only 3 subject,nasebb subjects tk boringg. bt still can slack. haha.
&& yeaa, received our Prelims timetable oredi..
starting on 12 august till 19 august.. both tues,no p.e.. mendakk.
but the best ting is, dapt alekk siang.. hah.
& i hope my soccer is nt gonna be cut dwn. ishh.

had trg today, reach arnd 5.45..
but the others were late, so only started training at 7..
smbil tnga tngu tu kann, da mendak sngt, maenla internet pat hp..
tklamer.. japp je.. saje check it out. haha.
reached hm at arnd 9 pluss. =]

&& yea, since my dnt artefact is done,
i have to do my Pb. presentation board.
i really hope i do well in dat area.
subject susa2, no hope la jawabnye. dahsyat2.

lastly ;
i cant live a lie animore.
& i hate to pretend to be -into- sumting when im nt.
it sucks to be in a situation when u hav to keep all dat u always wanted to say, by urself.
& nt to the person itself.

`bulan.

2008-07-17T22:13:00.005+08:00

had nt been in my best of moods this few days.
yg laen ajak kuar pon aku tak ikot. haiy entalakan..
bt i should be going for soccer trg tomorow.
the last tym i went out wif the two pisangs, was on tues.
andd oh! syahidah bought that Nike slippers,
i paid sum of it. [very belated bdae present.]
die kate die nk tu slipper, & she said it looks
very similar to .. [smmgnye aku tk ingt pn slipper -die cmne.]
[aku rase kn ida colour blind, tk nmpk cm brown pun. dark green adela.]

naseb tk baek sungguh narie..
macam2 ajerr.
&& during Mt, was talking to ika, smpai keje tk abes.
aku start paper dulu, aku abes last.. & cikgu ask me to follow hym to
Sec 4NT class to finish it up.
ohh! i was in koka's Mt class.. hahah..
so, i asked her, wat she meant when she told&asked me all that in the canteen.
she ans with a diff look on the face. haiy.
again ka ; Alangkah indahnye. [A.i]
& coz of dat,was arnd 15mins late for eng. ishh.

werds for today;
Ika ; Everday Qs yng brighten day aku.
mas ; handsome nye.
An ; cair nye.

&& yea, League starting soon, on 27th july wif U-19.

before i forget ;
to those who are nt happy wif me, for sum reasons.
aku kann ade kdg2 dpan kau. bobl je la.
kau brani tules2 pasl aku, nmpk aku asl tk sound skali?

saper2 yng terase, ok best.

2008-07-15T22:15:00.008+08:00

lyke again, info dtg tanpe dimintak.
i was thinking about the qs ka asked me during recess. haiyy.
maybe she had her reasons for asking & telling me all dat.
thanx ait ka. bt lyke i say. Alangkah Indahnye. tapy tk mukin.

&& yea there will be no more sidetrack boud *..
i may miss all that, but i dun wan others to get the wrong idea.
i did say before -they- patch that i will back off.
i did, but i still kept on waiting..
now i will really back off.
again, i dun wan others to say ".... org ketige"
those who noe me, will noe dat, aku tkan amek mataer org,
ape lagy mengacau mataer org.
i noe my limits k.
mcm mane aku r/c/s die pon, aku tetap pkir ehh prasaan org laen.

to not let pisangs & others think differently,
i will treat her lyke how i did the last 2 weeks.
nw till whenever.

&& i noe, my mistake was wanting to send * hm yest.
dat will be the last k.
& dat -Last- nite talk will also be the last.
she called me out of boredom.
i dont blame her, sume org kol aku bile tnga mendak,
jgn kate * , amalina, chomel, syak.
samer je la.

haiyy.

with this, its the end of everyting.

& bulan tk seterang mane niari.
tk nmpk cm bulan pun.
macm patch yng fade.

2008-07-14T22:21:00.004+08:00

dis few days has been a -drink smoke slack sleep- ting.
i get sleepy so easily. ishh.
ouhh yeaa, chomel made a new song, wif my help,here n there.
dat song was supposed to be funny. endup lagu sedeh. haha.
will upload it soon. once it's played wif guitar.

& beb, kau nye minyak wangi melekat eii pat aku.
bau bedak baby.. haha.

& yeaa its nt confirm if im going fer Shidahbeck's bdae celebration tmrw,
at ecp arnd 7 plus.
if im going,chomel is following.. haha.
[nkk ajak dier, eskk tues eii. macam tak pahm2 gtu. haha.]

ouhh ya, before i forget.
Pizza hut treat,another Swensens treat & Karaoke is within dis 2 weeks.
Karaoke? yng tknk gy celebrate bdae chomel, entalakn ape nk ckp agy.
those going, me, chomel, syahidah, afif, adyq, puti [gf baru. haha!]
maybe going ; * , alif, ( ??? ina ika mas ??? )

everyting is back to normal again.

& i hope nothing lyke "dat" happen again.

2 minggu tk bobl, sedehh okeh.

it seems lyke old days,

to hav late nite talks & walks hm.

& yea, itu sume skali skale.

very rare eii.

thanx aite.

imy still.

2008-07-11T19:08:00.002+08:00

sch as usual was boring ;
& yea, the sec 2's are back from their NYAA camp.
talked to _ fr awhile b4 i left sch.
& she said she was sick.
kesiann kau ehh.
[asl aku nk bobl,ade jek org kacau] haha.

thurs ;
after sch, bought dat present wif chomel.
[she was feeling very unstable. babi.]
denn got hm, took those -drinks- denn off to polyclinic.
waited too long, 2 hrs eii. n die msk jmpe doc, 2 min je. siak.
[met wahidah, firdaus & akiah there too.]
after dat met adek, off to wdls lamer.
& since adek hav to go hm wif me,
the 3 of us met ina ferst to take the thermometer
n while lepak-ing under her grandma's blk.
we drank.
ohh ,nt fer adekk. she drink coke je. =]

& yeaa, forgot to say thanx to mas for passing the present to berok.. haha.
=]

2008-07-09T22:08:00.005+08:00

had my eng n level oral today ;
the passage was boud family,badminton,cook & food.
n the pic was boud chefs. ish3..

& i really was nervous in the reading,
word yng ade R susa aku nk sebot. ishh.
pic ; blehh la tahan.. talk wateva dat came to my mind.
& the conversation, i manage to talk alot.
pasl sports sume aku kuarkn..

after sch was in search fer dat present;
aku suker, tapi mas kate colour combination tk lawa.
brown ngn white ok per.
tkpe2, chomel will accompany me to buy it soon. heh.
&& since mas wanted to buy dat sushi,
i tried it again, but dis tym round w/o chomel. hahah.
raser nye sungguh tidak perlu.. ishh. =]

& i still do think boud u,always.

u may be juz infront of me,

but its juz so hard for me to talk.

haiy.

i miss u lyke old tymes.

An rindu Nsbna sngat2.

2008-07-08T22:47:00.003+08:00

aint feeling well now..
my eyes are swollen due to ....
should be better by tmrw morning..
tnga lapar jugakk, nk makn tapi tkde selera.. haiyy.

dunnoe if i can do well for my n level eng oral 2mrw.
harap2 lahh tk pkiran sal pape eskk.
wish me luck aite.

read sum tings.

& yea its true,

there will be no more starings frm the fourth floor.

its gd that u understand.

i didnt do it for myself, but for ur sake.

ur happiness aite.

& awak tk kehilangan buddy awk,

die tetap akn ade disini ait.

1 wishes down,

1 more to go..

if cann la kann.

hah.

ismysdm.

2008-07-08T16:26:00.003+08:00

yest ;
went to buy ciggs & made my way to bishan at arnd 6pm.
[macm biase aku lmbat. haha]
played hide n seek wif ida & chomel.
-baek uhh kann korg. aku kuar pat bishan korg naek tu train.-
took the next train which had no one inside the cabin.
& those 2 pisang naek at the next stop. ishh.

headed to pasir ris, reached at their chalet at arnd 8pm.
tym kat pasir ris tu, tnga duduk sorg2, berjiwang la japp kann. hahah.
wanted to msged *, but pkir2 balek, tk patot tk patot. haiy.
denn at arnd 10 plus,me & chomel drank.
ohh aku prefer liquor, tapii ape nk uat, liquor lom smpai.. haha.
made our way hm & reached at 1215 ..

today ;
nothing much, macm biase jugk..
bt juz dat i was too sleepy & very unstable the time i came to sch.
time P.e tros energetic..
played badminton thenn takraw..
part takraw, my fav, incident tk patot di ckp.. haha.
kan ina kan ? hahahaha.

i noe im diff.

i cant seem to look or smile at u nimore.

those memories will juz keep cuming back.

no matter how i want to look & smile at u,

i juz cant do dat animore.

once in a while, i will aite.

& yea, i miss all dat too. haiy.

='/

2008-07-06T01:32:00.003+08:00

saturday as usual ; out of the hse.
met akiah & chomel in the evening, went to banquet & eat..
& thenn went to search for stuffs.
otw back to mars ; was msging hazilah , denn _ msged.
asking if i was okehh. && kept on saying sorry. haiyy.
_ said sorry for a reason, which i dun noe.
chomel read all those msges, die pon pelik jugkk.. hah..
macm2 ajerr.
_ last msg of d nite was," if im hapi, will u be hapi ? "

im trying so hard to distance myself frm u.

as & wen i try, u will still be the one i think about.

im still trying nt to msg u ait.

haiy.

imysvm.

2008-07-04T21:52:00.008+08:00

aku penat.. serious.
tdo tadyy ptg, tetap tk cukup.

dis few days has been a -no-gud- day for me.
too many -unwanted- info at one time.
sungguh tidak perlu. haiyy.

yest;
reached hm at arnd 11.30pm after the soccer match wif NTU at ntu.
Kratingz won them 4-2. but dis is juz frenly match.
still have league, to see if we can finally beat them,

&& dis explaen y im tired in schh. tdo pun lmbat. ishh.
&& dis two days in sch have been a miscalling session wif ina.. haha..
suke ehh suke.. monyett.

tmrw; not going for HtwoO filming coz my stuffs are not wif me. haiyoo.
maybe meeting Chomel. not sure yet.

nothing much to say,

my brain is jammed.

only dat ;

pls,

dun have to worry boud me

& i miss u so much more.

2008-07-01T21:53:00.002+08:00

my mind was elsewhere todayy..
sumer bnder aku bacer,sume aku tk phm. haiy.

during recess sumting happen ; dont wan to say it further.
after dat incident, & maybe bcoz of dat incident,
or maybe bcoz of ME ? * was diff. kehh aku tak tahu.
lyke wat i ALWAYS used to do, i look at * frm the 4th floor,
she was infront of her class. [3rd floor]
& * said sumting, which i didnt expect, " aper tgk2 "..
ferst tym, mmg terpranjat.. & she said dat for another two times.
i couldnt look at her animore, i juz walked to class.

"aper tgk2" ??

ape ehh sala org smpai kene tinggi kan suare smpai gtu macm ?

for dat few mins, bukn skali ehh, 3 kali kehh awk ckp gtu.

yerla,mmg la awk tnga sort, tapi lau org pandang, sape suro tgk alek?

kalau org ade uat sala, n u said dat, mmg org tkan amek hati.

tapy nie tk pasl2, tros gtu.

lau tk suker org pandang awk, ckp jek,org takan pandang. ait.

lau tnga marah ngn org laen pon, tkmo lepaskn pat org.

org nye sabar ade batas.

& im very disappointed wif u.

2008-06-30T22:40:00.003+08:00

yest ;
went to toa payoh hub early in the morning. reach at arnd 8am.
me & atiqah adela tercari2 yng laenn. haha.
pagi2 lagy kite da blur.
got to know dat we send two teams ; Kratingz & Al Daeng. [Krating Daeng]
it is pronounce as Al-Da-Eng not da-yeng lyke pronounce by the officials..
ishh.. macam2 care dorg sebot..
played timbang & monyet wif D united fc pple, macm2 org ade ei..=]
stayed there till arnd 7pm..
Kratingz got to the final but got 4th placing. bgos la jugkk tu..
Al Daeng didnt manage to go to finals, but they played their best..
saw many familiar faces there, kecohh dahh.. ishh.

& since da penat sngt berdiri, duduk la pat bwa tu kann.
thenn was looking at a person i thought was Dydie..
tapi bukann,sala eii. denn the person infront of hym, smiled at me,
pandang skali, tk knal.. pandang lamer ckit, aru knal.. MW rupernye.. haha..

today ;
sch ? noting exciting..
macam biase, kerje aku kacau org jekk. =]
[mangse2 utk hari ni adela ; Anisah , Ateekah & Fiqa.]
hahaha.. kehh sungguh tidak perlu.
after sch ;
slept for awhile. denn met the rest at arnd 5 gtu.
Chomel treat, blanje Swensens,
there was, adyq, ida, ika & zubad..
yerlakannn! ina tdoo jekk kerje.. ishh.
reach hm at arnd 9 gtuu.

there is just so much that i wan to tell.

but i juz cant seem to say it out.

& everytym i think its ok to try,

sumting will juz "stop" me frm doing so.

haiyy.

2008-06-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

2008-06-28T00:05:00.005+08:00

P.S ; Dis post will be long..

sent * home today [fri] ; & we played a game near the linkhse.
game tu sungguh tidak perlu ehh wakk.
syg nye pasl ehh, i followed her all the way..
kite puseng tu tmpat je kann, enta brape bnyk kali..
kononye maze la kann, sungguh tk menjadii.. haha.
all the way eveything was fine.
&& as i thought that happiness would last ; it didnt.
but i ignored all those things, n thought it as a challenge.
i read things which made me "lemah"..
but still i m no one, onli a buddy, [ lyke she say ] ,
so i dont have right to be jealous. im fine with dat..
but heyy ; it aint too late for me too try to win dat heart..
i've thought boud it ; i may lose in the end, but i wont mind trying ,
for the reason that i have been waiting for 5 months.

&& yeaa, i need to refresh my memories..
i seriously forget all those unwanted 2006 memories.. wahdoh!
the ferst tym that i noe * ; 26 MAY 2006. (last day of the term)
her ferst year in that sch.
26 may ; we went to Retro Fever.[nite ; sch hall]
didnt know her at all, wanted to disturb atiqah, bt atiqah change sits wif *,
pass msged to atiqah thru *.. sambil2 tu knal2 la skali ngn dier kann.
tanye namer & she ans ; "samer macm org tu"

[ pointing at adyq,rows infront of us ].
&& she thought adyq had the same name..but nope..

adyq name is SA-HI-RA..

only managed to get her num when sch reopens ; july.
tu pon dapt dr atiqah. dat tym pat canteen ; pangel2 *,

dier pulak suro org gy ctu.
denn i finally msged her when i was otw to National trg,

& she was supposed to have Npcc..
we denn continue msging after my soccer trg &

was otw to mama's hse at Marine parade.
we didnt msged much coz she was tired.
& when we msged ; she asked y i didnt ask for her num personally.
the ans was ; malu lahh eii.. [aku kan pemalu] fake! haha.

start frm dec 23rd 06 was the day we were finally together..

all those ups & downs.

&& i know i did alot of mistakes..

mistakes which could be settled easily but were always been dragged.

we lasted for 1 year w/o breaking. [1 year 1 month to be exact]

but there were many tymes where we were on the verge of breaking up.

long enough lahh dis post..

&& i seriously miss that old nurul shahirah bte nor azahar.

which i have known for ; 2 years 1 month & 2 days.. [ferst time aku kire].

haiyy.

gdnite bintang.

2008-06-26T20:56:00.002+08:00

yest ;
sch was nothing new.
bt wif ina's qs of the day.. really made me laugh..
"ana, kau ade mataer?"
soalan kau tkde bonus lagyy eh monyet ? hahah..
bru sebulan tk jumpe, soalan gtu kau tanye..ishh.

arnd 5 plus left home for soccer trg wif Abg,
&& i was late.. nasebb smpai i wasnt the last to reach..
played st soccer. && Ace btol2 nye miang narie..
tebiat da dtg, prangai tklehh angkat..
dgn tangan2 yng menunjukan die tu lembut.. haha..

today ;
i slept at 4 plus in the morning,
& i woked up late..
da bngon lmbt, 6.45, pkir nk gy skul lmbat..
tahu2,tetdo smpai 8.30.. dahh tu, nk dtg skola, macm malas gtu kann..
so went back to sleep.
nothing much happen today..

i knew it frm the start dat u needed me in ur life onli as a fren.

& i noe my biggest mistake, was nt trying to get u back.

haiyy. lyke i said far earlier,

u may go on wif hym, coz his trying, bt i wasnt.

giv me sumtym & i will think boud dat.

tmrw having trg & maybe going to Wans pit, tgk la bdk2 bola gy tkk.

sat ; drink day. probably ton for dat day or maybe chomel sleeping over.

sun ; the day im waiting for. supporting Kratings at toa payoh. =]

2008-06-24T22:25:00.003+08:00

sch was ; bolehh lahh tahan..
&& i was too noisy, bnyk org irritated.. hahah.. siak2..
&& dis ass, tgkk org da takk tahu senyum lah knn ? tkper2.. da biase wakk. hah.
&& another ass, naseb baek aku lambai kau lambai alekk.. hahah.. i like dat! =P.

&& fcuk, lyke all the normal sch time..
i had always hated tuesday.. =/. haiyy.

sch ended at 2.30.. denn went to CWP in search of dat N-level Maths 10 years series..
denn off to sunplaza, took the bus instead of mrt..
next was off to, northpoint.. went to those 3 places, wif adyq & mas.
&& dat book was still nowhere to be found.. yerla, nk bli buku last min,
mestyla tkde.. haha..
after all dat, reached hm arnd 6 plus..
&& while having dinner, msged wif the ass which waved at me in sch.. haha..
wat she said, really made me thinking.. haiyyo.

i dont want to be a barrier between the two of you..
if i treat u diff, u noe the reason why..

2008-06-23T19:05:00.005+08:00

am so bored now.
wanted to mit ika ina adyq n chomel at arnd 2 plus juz now,
but dis sickness of mine,was soo bad dat
i didnt went,even for sch, & club trg..
slept early yest nite, wanted to msged *, but i thought,
i should start now.. haiyy.
23rd today, 5 months has pass, how long more ehh ?
it should have been 1 year 6 months.
&& * , lyke every other 23rd of the month,
pls check dat email.

fcuk, but i miss u soo muchh..

pictures at ECP.

2008-06-23T15:41:00.005+08:00

aku dinamerkn Mat Kental. dat slipper sungguh tidak perlu.
Chomel , Ika & myself.

writting my love.

entertaining us all. singing together wif herr.
Mas, Chomel & An.

enjoyy seyy mandi.

chomel.

tkder maksod nye. haiyy.

2008-06-22T21:13:00.007+08:00

have been sick for the past 2 days.

flu,sore throat & fever.. haiyy.

for the past few days was at east coast wif frens & Chomel's family.

this post will be long btw..

friday;

onli 4 of us went to ecp, we had alot of fun though..

cycle wif Mas from one end to another..

&& i realised Mas easily get tired.. ishh.. improve ur stamina lahh..

cmner nk racing gni ? hahah.. && wen i cycle i like to "zig-zag"..

member kelanjar part tu.. haha. waiink!

pictures will be uploaded later.. =]

sat ;

was at ecp again,this tym was wif Chomel fam.

onli me ika & chomel were there..

later at nite, took adyq at carpark E. [ yerla kann, kite pat carpark D,

die tercmpak kat carpark F, & so kite jumpe pat tnga2.]

there met sum new pple, bt those that we were "close" wif were, Elsa & Suziana.

tym malm arnd 2 plus, org tnga sebok pat chalet,

me,chomel,ika,adyq & su went to the water breaker..

tu water breaker, bukn dkat ngn pantai, lebeh dlm ckit je..

nkk gy ctu je seluar da basah..

&& while slacking on top of the WB, kite tgkk la langit,

smbil nyanyi2 bobl chronic skali,

& mule2 bnyk bintang dkt ngn bulann.

but time to time, onli left one bintang yng dkt ngn bulan..

lyke i say, senang je bulan tu dkat ngn bintang.

tapy nk dapt kan satu bintang ni dkt ngn bulan ni, punyela susa. hah..

[ dream on An ].

&& sumting unexpected happen.

since the chalet was all full wif pple sleeping.

the five of us, me,su,ika,adyq & chomel, dcided to go to the chalet behind ours.

[since we came there, no one was using the chalet, no light & door was close.]

kononnye nk bareng2 pat ctu. langit pon da nak hujan..

we were there lying or sitting down, then Chomel went back to charge our hp,

ika denn wanted to sleep in the middle of me & adyq.

die da diri, denn ask me to move aside, bt sngaje tanak.. haha.

dddenn, the four of us heard a knocking sound on the window.

an ; bunyi ape tu ?

at the same tyme.

ika ; [she saw a hand knocking on the window]

die cabot, followed by adyq & Su. aku yng tk tahu crite tros angkat slipper Akiah & lari skali.

sume da smpai kat pintu blkng tgk alek tu chalet. hahah..

da tak tahu ape nk ckpp, sume snyapp.. hahah..

Denn chomel tell kak fida ape jady,

Kak Fida ckp, " -org tu- ketok, korg ketok alekk.

mane tahu die nk pinjam sikat ke. nk ajak jady kawn, nakk maen cak2"..

hahah.. ade2 jekk..

today ;

arnd 6 plus, the five of us slept on the staircase. since da hujan lebat.

sume tk tentu arahh. i didnt get to sleep..

denn ....... pnjng sngt nk crite.

in the afternoon, arnd 3 plus me chomel adyq & ika slept in the room upstairs..

gerekk tuu.. haha..

now im confuse.

onli time will tell wat will happen.

watever it is i still am missing u soo muchh.

this tears, juz cant stop.

&& again., lyke every other month.

tomorrow is the 23rd.. haiyy..

sungguh tidakk perlu.

2008-06-19T22:07:00.006+08:00

msged * wat i wanted to say all dis while. [there were more, bt i juz hold it back.]
slept onli after i sent that last msged, at arnd 5 plus.
in between those msges didnt do anything but kept on thinking. haiyy.

didnt went to skul for the study camp.
but onli came at 12 plus. coz at arnd 10 plus adyq woke me up wif her phone calls,
& she told me to cum sch to go for the learning journey.
learning journey ? URA & KG heritage centre.. bolehh lahh tahan.
but everything macm rush je..

otw back to sch, adyq was singing all the jiwang songs..
[lagu dahh sedeh2, die uat jadyy klaka]
wif all the actions yng tk menjadyy.. haha..

wont be going sch tmrw, but going east coast wif the rest..
leaving in the morning but will hav to make my way to bukit gombak st soccer at 5.30..
really hope trg tk cancel.. aku rindu maen bola.. hahha.. =]

&& on the way hm, pat wdl lamer nye bustop,

ternmpk satu kakak ni dalm bus, ishh..

hot habes. dgn rmbot bru die yng da reborn..

pandang skali org hot, 2nd tym pandang.. DBK eii.. hahaha.

suke ehh tgkk aku behh ktawe2.. hahah.. =]

*,
no werds i say would make u mine again.
have fun during ur last few day of hols aite.

i guess i dont dserve a second chance.

isit bcoz i didnt even try to win u back?

nvm,dont hav to ans.

coz i think,u are too confuse.

2008-06-19T01:54:00.004+08:00

Slept yest cuming to 6am.. haiyy.
& wen she msg me, i replied that msg half-heartedly.soriee ait.
didnt went to skul dis morning, tersadar at 7.30,but still, was too tired to wakeup.
sum of ika & mas msged were ignored, penatt eii asyek type2 je.. haha.

at arnd 5 plus left hm for soccer, da pat adm,
shidah msged & said trg cancel.
nasebb lom naek train. denn msged Chomel, ajak jumpe,
alekk pon bukann ade pape,
so yeaa met her at titanic, denn to mars, nk bli rkk,
& arnd dat area, saw mr khir,
he stopped wen i walked pass him,
he was doing his routine check kot.. hahah..

waited fr akiah to cum, & after she bought the ciggs, slack2 awhile..
denn off to titanic again, time check 7 pluss..
ohh ya, otw there, saw * & sum others.. hahah.. otakk stop kejap.. hah.
&& y the sorry ehh wakk ? takk pahm eii. ishh.
after dat, wal came.. [story chomel da critekn di bwa.]
while tnga lepakk tu, was msging wif Anisah & Syak.
gdluckk ehh anisah, da maot seyy masok national.. hhaha..
train hard aite for Nats.
left the place arnd 9.30.. & i reach hm arnd 10.20 lahh gtuu..

*,
wat u said mmg -tidak perlu-..
move on ? haiiy. is dat the only ting u wan me to do?
org da dnga tu sumer 4 bulan yng lalu..
tkyahh nk ingt2 kann.
if i could, i would had done dat long ago.
so stop trying to ask me to do that aite.

&& aku rindu DBK eii.. hahah..

very rare, bt serious.. =]

2008-06-19T01:34:00.006+08:00

Just nw, an & myself lepak with akiah & wal.

Hmms it seems that they had an argument.
Bru aku tau that wal org yg setia.

Wal try to coax akiah, he said that he really luv her.
This is wat wal said," u klau nk i terjun skrg, i bleh buat.

Klau u nk i rembat org yg jalan pat dpn kite ni pun i buat."

hmms klakar la wal.
Aku ckp dgn wal, jgn la smpai mcm gitu skali.
& wal said, thats the way he wanna prove his love to akiah.
She started to laugh when wal said again,

"cinta tu sama mcm kite nk angkat gajah.

Klau tkde org nk tlg aku angkat tu gajah,

tkkn aku nk angkat sorg? " haha.wal mepek jap.
tapi ape die kate tu make sense.
Aku respect wal, eventhough kata2 die tadi tk semanis gula,
he had put in so much effort to save his relationship with akiah.
After the long conversation, that couple went back.

Romantic sungguh, diorg naik basikal.Haha.
Kuwang aja korg tgglkn aku dgn an.

Endup, aku dgn an balik jaln kaki.
So sad, but wat to do, da nasib badan kn,kn,kn. Haha.
Aniwae thanks an sbb sudi anta aku balik.

Swit la lu. Haha itu jela story for today.

~ Chomel

2008-06-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

past few nites had been thinking too muchh.aboud everything related lahh kann.
even more aboud *.. sungguh aku takk suker..haiyy.
i have dis feeling that im not needed anymore..
but what more can i do ? just be "happy" since u are..
&& i noe, those late nite talks are being done wif sum others.
[ yng tak pahm, tkperla kann ]

when to sch wif Syuhadah -asyuh- [ bdk rc ] & we talked alot. =]
in sch, i wasnt in the mood to study, coz my brain was elsewhere.. haiiy.
the onli thing dat made me happy today was when i finally talked to ika & mas..
Didnt went for Games bcoz i would be the only one representing my class, for other games.
siakk kann.. lagy2 netball, takan aku nk maen sorg..
badminton? adyq hand injured soo die tkk dtg..
bola ? yng laen tk inform pape, tgkk sume alekk je, ape lagyy, balekk lahh kann.
b4 i went hm, went to cut hair..
met Chomel,she cut her hair,she went over to my place,slack3.. & arnd 8pm sent her to adm..=]..

tomorow, will not be attending sci, sungguh aku tkde mase nk layan tu cikgu for 3 hours.
soo will be leaving sch at 12.30pm.. && in the evening, off for my soccer..
dats all for now yaww..

&& altho im sad for sum reason, im still missing *.
haiyy.

2008-06-16T22:13:00.003+08:00

&& todayy,study camp was.. entala kann..
hate the studying part, lyke the Motivational Talk [MT] & games.
the ferst ting i said wen i entered the hall for tht MT was ; "ehh Hot nye. haha".
adyq [sahira] & syahidah tros ckp : "siak uhh kau"..
those who were there for the motivational talk, the leaders, were all malay,
& majority of demm were girls.. & arnd our age oso.hahah. =].
there's ika lookalike..
& zakiah lookalike..she was the ferst person i saw wen i enter.. hahah..
ade yng cm cikgu wati, macm2 muker lahh kite nmpk.. hahah..
ohh & we played the blindfolding game & had to called out to our classmate using a duck sound.
sum of dem were pulling my hand, aku pon tak tahu tngan sape aku pegang.. haha..
maen gtu jek sume da berpeluhh.. heh.

&& for the games part.. wawawa,.
paired up wif adyq for the badminton doubles.
only had 1 match for us, coz 4c ran out of girls.. haha.
adyq & myself beat zulaikha kecik & janice.. nice game yaw.. =]..

more to cum tmrw, but nt sure if im goin or not..
sungguh aku malas nk study, games jek aku hyper.. haha..

2008-06-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

mas ;
the dcision "u" make or wanted to make, doesnt even make me happier.
&& in wat way did i sort out dis matter ?
aku cume kate. -lead ur own life-.
kalo korg da nak mengaku gtu, aku tukar jek lah tu bnder. [i have changed it again]
pasl kite kawan pon nak kene pkir2 ke ?
&& i say u made tat dcision bcoz i read it for myself la.
sndiri mo ingt kehh.
if nt i wouldnt have said all dat..
a dissapointment to see me this way ? hah. it is also a dissapointment to see the both of u dis wayy.
dont blame me if u didnt get to say wat u wanted. i oredi ask u to tell, bt no, u still wanted to keep it by urself.
nak aku uat ape lagy ? yerkan je la ape2 yng korg nakk.
tkya korg nk pkir2 sngt..
& noone asked fr dis seperation.
u think for urself nt others.

ika ;
im sorry if my way of replying ur msg, hurt u.
u should noe the reason.
u want it dat way ? okehh. im nt stopping u.
lyke u say, u lead ur life. soo yeaa.
do watever dat will make u happy aite.

watever dat happen, we are still frens.
thnx pisangs, fer those memories.=]

next week ;
mon to thurs ; sch, 8am to 6pm.[wed soccer trg 5.30pm to 8pm]
fri ; sch, 8am to 12.30pm. [soccer trg same tyming].
sat ; ECP chalet. [anak sdare Chomel]
will be back on sunday nite. =]

2008-06-14T22:21:00.015+08:00

Chomel/boss tnga berjiwangg.
ishh..romantic nyer.. hahah..

family day = todayy..

had so muchh fun juz now.. went to civic karaoke place, wif the family plus abg gf & my new gf. chomel kape ? gf for a dayy.. hahaa.. macm pahm!.

chomel was the ferst to sing, request eii..

&& her ferst song was " bukan ku tak cinta".. hahah.. jiwangg ajerr.

went at 2pm, finish karaoke at 7pm. 5 hours wasnt enough.. coz there were still songs to sing.

during the karaoke part, me & chomel had alot of fun.

ktawe2 non stop, denn we tried papa's Carlsberg. & abg's gf vodka 7-up..

ermm, carlsberg taste nicer btw.

denn papa ordered another vodka 7-up for me & Chomel.

& denn another vodka for us. abg oso got one. hahah..

after all dat, went to sembawang park for dinner.

there, me & chomel tried another drink.. red wine..

kehh, itu sungguh i-dont-know-wat-to-say. haha..

after eating all those seafood & desserts.

sent chomel back hm by taxi..

onli me her & adek..

ohh! & sumbody called me while in the taxi.

yerlah kann. die luper nk miskol bile da alekk.

ngantok? uhh.. dahh suro jgn minom nescafe tym malm, tetap degil. ass.

ohh, & papa said, " u can drink when im here, not when ur wif ur frens"..

werds for today was, " reach 18 & u can smoke & drink all u wan"..

ohh yeaa, one prob which spoilt my mood today.

pisangs pisangs tertentu ; i dun understand the both of ur dcisions.

explain to me denn we will see how it goes aite.

&& dun bcoz of sum small reasons which can be solve dat easily, korg nk uat keputusan gtu.

& dun bcoz, one of u make dat dcision, the other have to follow. haiy.

aper2 pon, pisangs are still here for u.

* altho we talk most of the nites,

i noe ur heart is never here.

& even if u dun say it, i must always be the one to remind myself

dat we are just "frens".

u noe the reason ; i dun wan to get jealous by watever dat u say.

2008-06-13T21:43:00.002+08:00

Adek woked me up at 12plus dis morning, coz my father wanted to talk to me.
&& fcuk, ingtkan aper tauu. & he showed me that pack of ciggs.
all i did was, "uhh". didnt receive any whacking coz he cant be bothered wif me.
the only thing he wants me to do is.. "pls stay at ur mum hse coz she wont care if u smoke,drink or watever".. uhh yerlahh kann..
after all that, slept again, ngantok lahh sngt kann.
woked up at 4, do watever dat was supposed to be done, thenn off for soccer training.
dis tym training at bukit gombak st soccer. too many pple,so we took turns to playy..
we also might receive our reporting shirts before 29 june, so dat on dat day,we can all cum & support our team mates for the Grand Finals.
Dats the only thing im looking forward to..

2008-06-11T23:07:00.005+08:00

kungfu panda was nice, kelakar la jugakk tu crite.
after eating at swensens , when for my soccer trg.
was abit late though, nasebb trg lom start.
&& soccer today was funn, 2 weeks eii tk trun training, tu pasl rindu the fun-ness wif dem. =]
on the way hm, in the train, talk to amalina on the phone.
sampai lahh dahh kat bwa blk, kite letakk..
suker ehh suker swit2 biler nmpk org pat tingkat org.hahah. macam2.

&& i dun wan to think boud all -that-.
im nt hoping 4 u to be mine, coz i noe, by hoping i will onli hurt myself.
im nt even trying, the more i try, the more i think u will be mine.
"so, if ur love was meant to be mine, denn it will be.
if its not, denn maybe ur love was never mine to begin wif. "
long2 tym ago,werds from Alai.=]
& orgg cukup pahm kehh wif wateva dat u said..
=]

&& the song below is boss new song, entalahkn maner die dapt inspirasi.

Bintang hati.mp3 - Chomel

2008-06-11T13:00:00.003+08:00

I feel so sleepy now.
macm malas gtu tau nk kuar, in a while gonna watch kungfu panda wif family..
denn frm there straight going fr my soccer.
yesterday nite & now, my brain wasnt working much.
[asl pkir jek, ade jek bnder2 yng tk patot terpkir, timbul] haiy..

i think i was thinking too muchh boud wat u said.. haiyy.
nvm lahh, i will soon get over it.. =]

now im off to the movies..will blog wenn i have the tym..=]

2008-06-10T21:52:00.004+08:00

noting muchh happen today.
went to school fr 4 hours of maths, half an hour break in between.
&& again,me & ika alone. the other pisangs? satu saket,satu kerje, satu senyapp je ? hah..
met firahh arnd 4 pluss under her blk, proceed to take chocs frm ika denn to 28..
dat ass firah thought she was seeing things.
she said " aku rase aku nmpk _ & _" denn she say "ehh tklahh,sala org".
she kept on looking, i oso join lahh kan, denn i say "btol lahh tu dorg"..
tros firah jdyy hyper..da macm org terbiat bwa tu blk.. strum guitar sekuat2 nye..

Aftr dat lots of things happen, sumer "jiwang" mode. haiy.
kecohh da..

to her;
lyke i said many tymes, dun be confused wit me & hym ait.
&& dun hav to rase bersala, im not hurt lahh wif wateva dat u think. =]
i juz wan to see u happy..
i noe u need tym to think boud everyting.
take lahh as much tym as u need ait.
&& heyy, dun worry, altho im waiting, i will never
ever hope for u to be mine again..
=].

2008-06-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

Slept late last nite, was on the phone wif Mas, frm 11 to 1 plus.
we talk about europe, both of my -past-, our pisang's problem, replacement & chances & also boud songs.. but the main topic was to be boud _ .. jauhh kann kite melayang.. wawawa..

today, didnt met ika, she went out wif her fam.
wanted to cancelled & nt pick firah up frm werk.
but ended up, i still went.
from bishan-cwp-131-syahidah hse.
otw to 131,
i wanted to try this drink.. yng mengoda aku..
"soda water".. after tasting it, dat bloody ass firah say,
" pat tempat kerje aku kan, soda water pkai untuk lap2 meja."
&& dat water, taste lyke europe, "sparkling water"..
patotla tk sedapp. ass.
went off from syahidah's hse arnd 8 pluss, && now,
im soo bored..

ohh btw ,
akuu rindu bintang.
adekk told me wat u said..
heartbreaking yer ? hahah.. wat i said was wat i felt..
=].

2008-06-07T21:33:00.003+08:00

Ferst tym blogging , & is upon requests by sum of d pisangs && sum others..
Fyi, i wont be blogging alone.. boss will also blog at tymes.. share2 lahh katekn..
hahah.. ader2 jek..

Came back from europe trip two days ago after 1o days being away frm hm..
&& hell , i miss alot of people here. esp those loved ones.. =].
but i still did enjoyed my moment there..
will be sharing my Reflections of everday i was there., in the later part of this blog..

&& so, at terminal 3,where the pisangs were waiting for me..
alot of problems were "bomb" at me.. one by one they told me their stories.

To ika ;
i have yet to hear the whole story frm u..
maybe u hav ur reasons for being cold towards Firah..
&& i noe everyting dat happen wasnt ur fault.
all dat happen was juz how u reacted towards the situation.
when i meet u tmrw, i will want to hear all those aite..

To Mas ;
i noe how u feel.. but u too have to understand _ dcision of doing so..
maybe ur way of showing ur love fer _, make _ tink in a diff way.. kalo sayang., sumer org syg kawn dorg .. n memg tksala.
& i feel, its better dat _ tell u now rather than u getting hurt later by the truth.
_ also have _ own way of thinking kann.
&& wateva u do mas, penknife put it away kehh.
Pisangs will always be here for u kehh..

to herr ;
although ur nt anyone's gf..
i noe ur heart still belong to sumone..
i may love u lyke how i did in the past.
but to make u nt in a confuse state between me & them.
i will juz hope fer ur happiness.
even if it mean, u having to go wif one of them.=]

werds fer d day ;
bulan tk menghrp pape, bulan hanye nk tgk bintang bahagia dgn org yng bintang syg, walaupun bulan tahu, org itu bukn bulan. =]